When I first heard Bikram's sardonic voice say the words "Welcome to my
torture chamber" I heard someone just kidding around, just trying to
distract from my own mind telling me to quit. I heard love and concern
and caring...because I had experienced the greatest, most miraculous
boost to my health ever in my life by doing this yoga almost everyday
for a year before I went to his training....so what went wrong? For
most of my entire adult life Ive never operated with more than $20,000
to my name, and usually less than half of that. Ive ended up begging,
borrowing and stealing whatever I can to try to stay affloat financially
not because Im a crack head idiot, but because I naively believed that
if I was as honest as I possibly could be with people as I walk thru
life-it could only be a good thing right? More like ya right. I
stayed strong for the majority but I admit I have started to loose it
gradually-the irony just so heavy, mostly because it just didnt have to
be. Thast what makes me crazy...all the pain hurled my way when it just
simply didnt have to be that way. I had so much promise, so much to do,
so much to offer....but the cut throat mentality still rules. Bikram in
some ways wize enough to know this-acts accordingly...there I go again
naively assuming a yoga guru would be a tad more spiritual than
that...at least enough to smell unfounded gossip when it found his
nose...but like a bullying kid he jumps right into the cut throatedness.
He claims to just stand back and watch...but about a year ago I STOPPED
rationalizing and defending him. My life is now over, along with my
shot health BECAUSE of the evil minded mean spirited shallow people who
congregate around him-oh ya they put on a good show for sure...how
stupid was I to believe the emphasis was really about health...his wife
Raj puts on a GREAT show about the science and the medical side of their
yoga, but get her off stage and she's 24/7 playing into the school yard
bully gossip, popularity contest too...keeping a sharp eye out for
those women who make the mistake of agreeing to "massage" Bikram. My life was destroyed fro ABSOLUTELY no reason and Bikram seems to thrive on these petty gossipy ways of his girls AND boys....
It's true! Yoga's huge presence in our world today IS a direct result of Bikram Choudhury's influence and hard work, and no doubt he has every right to claim "Hot Yoga" as his own, unfortunately however, he is too often a misdirected idiot. For 5 years I blamed everyone else around him for robbing me of the last good years I had to try to eek out a career for myself. It's a loss for everyone. I understand his intention behind copyrighting his sequence. He has every right. I think its because he wants it to work for as many people as possible-SAFELY for example. His name is on it. He too could be sued etc. But the way he goes about it is like a stupid 6 year old. He prides himself on being good at hiding his true feelings...and so now especially seeing him on the stand giving testimony on Nightline a few weeks ago-his soul looks old and broken. Such a shame. The yoga saved my life as miraculously as a magic wand, and yet the PETTY low, misguided hatred from "the community" tortured me for 5 years (watch how Bikram HQ stands by while Bikram teachers Donna Trantham and Thailand's Moo ambush the studio they SOLD me in 2010 for $6000. No one wanted the studio because it made so little money, so they brought me down knowing I had nothing, Gave me a loan, and allowed me to work off the amount (after doubling the asking price), which I did. I was 48 years old and had NOTHING so opted to go for it-and they used my financial vulnerability against me a year later when they had a local woman cop friend of their's stand by while a locksmith chnaged MY locks. I begged the cop that she was putting me out on the street....this was COMPLETELY illegal. Evey lawyer I spoke with told me I had a case...but what would I pay with? I still have a year left on the statute of limitations-so if any good samaritan's out there would be so inclined....I half dead now anyone, can barely walk after a bad fall, body is rotting , depression of the charts.....when I went to Bikram's training it was my hope to simply make work (that I loved) for myself, maybe own a studio, maybe meet a boy, maybe have a baby, adopt, I just wanted to the basics and even in my later years was holding on after a rough life....and Bikram whipped out his dick laughing as he pissed all over my dreams, surrounded by all his whores and other materialistic self important haters....yoga my ass. Omg it kills me. It has killed me.
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