Killing Me Softly is STill Murder

Because I wasn unconscious when I was raped...its much easier to talk about than if at traditional knife or gunpoint right? I was fondled in my youth by a couple of people, in a way that didnt hurt me emotionally at all...I can laugh at all of it...it was/ is the way my "family" and "friends" react to my ever daring to bring up the subject that was the true rape, the rue molestation, the REAL abuse. This I believe more tan ever is part of the reason Ive eneded up soem irreparably destroyed...I dont really want to die...cany believe I have any hope at all left...but here I am...ostracized completely by a bunch of poeple who dont know each other, an dthe only reason they have me in common is because they all used my vulnerability to take advanatge, to get their way...all completely doffernt rrasons..but this ios what is wrong with the world in a nutshell...someone is going to document my life, whether IM alive or dead...and this sloppy bloffing...lets name it slogging...is THE RECORD I hand over to the lord...

It seems like Im way too open...but really I dont talk about personal shit in terms of family friends (of which there are so very few anyway -so thats easy I guess) anyway...My I last called my cosuin a few years ago...I think I left her a piece of my mind, and probably got a little ugly...but mind you she deserves it and years have passed...what kind of christian family doesnt practice forgiveness? But this is my family for ya, my dear cousin I discovered upon trying to call her for the first time since., years as I said..she blocked my number! Not because I'm dangerous, how annoying can a person be with one 45 second message in a few years time.....more like maybe she doesnt want anyone else to hear the messages, the thing sI have to say...more like simply the truth hurts.  I guarantee shes the kind of person who in a second would contact her local police, and try to create a smoke screen if I were to show up unannounced, just like my brother now that I think of it...just to cober up their knowledge childhood sexual deviance...in whoch I tell a story that embarrasses (both) of them...so I guess just like Jane, just like Peggy Grant....they fabiricate a reason to involve police because they know I was once traumatized by a very short black woman with a gun in a blue uniform...they PRAY that my ugly mouth will keep them safe...so that I would never be taken seriously...that their coverups, no matter how minor the "abuse", its the shocking way that they would crucify me because they dont want m life's story told...so they slowly kill me off...ket me run my mouth, get into more troiuble...thats how it works...people DRIVE each other to suicide...whether they desreve it or not...no one want sto talk...cause that gets messy, time consuming...she was only 12 but I was only 8 and she stood back and watched the farm hand we all crushed on somehwat, whip his dick out...is that molestation? when an 20 year old hispanic man says to a little 8 year old girl "Touch it!" I picked up a piece of metal and slightly hit it...everyone laughed....should I name the 3 other cousins? WHo mentally beat me up, made fun of me to the best of their ability.....lol...move on? Oh ok. Fuck you. I should name your gd names. But Ill refrain for now...oh my my bro...whole other scenario involving a teacher while we were growing up....Ive been itching to compare my lot in life against this hypocrisy since 1995-way before the internet...and all theyve done was try to make me look crazier and crazier any chance they get....when all I might have asked for was a $100 loan, or a couch to sleep on for a week, or...totally minor shit...family right. Fuck you. I only called nc cousin y athats right to ask for a loan! What the fuck else would I call her for? So she can brag about the life handed to her on a platter...oh but IM sure she suffered in her own cowardly way to inherit the hell...not eto potential kidnappers-keep it straight-my family would love to see me murdered of...take my cousin in CA...he'll go one about never getting laid by his wife, and how shes zapping him for more than $75,000 a year in co pays alone towards her career breast cancer...but if I ask for a couple hundred bucks once in a blue moon to keep electric on, or car registered...the basics...he'll ignore my calls....and if he reads this really never speak to me again...is it worth it? I dunno. ALl I know is Im feeling closer to death and disease every second....livong fo rthe moment and attempting to shed light onthe problems that didnt have to be,

She is a miserly self important bitch....I called from another number thats how I know...anyway...ya so I need to talk to her and she would go to such trouble to avoid me...let homeland security know that a family memeber FEARS another family member....just a bunch of gd hypocrites as per usual...so I'll blog and let someone tap her on the shoulder fo rme...and that makes me crazy? Does it make me a hypocrite?

So ironically I would never write about Bible bertha .Bible birthing...omg I have the most amazing seething pic of her...I should find it and put it up...because....thats what happens when someone needs to talk and the other one slams the door in their face based on their own petty fears....oh...ya the only reason I was calling her was because cousin Melanie told me years ago Uncle Lousi left her 4 Billion dollars...ya seems a bit of a, more than slight exaggeration...but who knows....when I asked her, if it was true lol she said "Its none of your business"...

So! In the same way I had to beg for $13 from Zeythinia's number one son...my own cousin wouldnt lend me a goddam nickle if thats what I needed to pull the details of a dream life together for myself....is that what you call competition Bikram? I mean Ive been subtly venting the shit about this little adopted mexican slooot for decades....putting me...theyre so afraid Im going to bring up our own personal version of a sandusky situation....emotionally anyway...because theyre more concerned about the children of the mexican dick whipper outer on my 8 year old self....its true I wasnt hurt one bit. really......so why talk about it/ Because their unbelievable denial, their inability to recognize the point...all these years instead of just putting an arm around me, they either buy my silence or completely ostracize me...my own brother, the friend of another teen years molester-teacher...they just dont get that they need to recognize the truth..instead, because I drove by my brother's house over christmas eve...when he saw me outside he threatened to "call the police if I didnt get the hell out of there..." Wow...So Ray? Marlou? How about you talk about it this way instead? And kiss my goddam ass. I slap you across your face fucking face for that....this is my digital slap...slapping myself? Ya maybe...to spare me from the oblivion that comes with total ostracization...fuck you too Jeanne Cawley Anzalone....I should put that other rant back up....I wanted to retract the hate I was venting towards the poor dude who died...assuming his kids would never hear me say that....Ill re edit it at some point...but because I am myself, drowning in the nothingness....I feel like Im leaving clues behind on who killed me off slowly....

Living in An Overpopulated World

Uganda and Japan at the same time? Really? Even ig fonly in words? wtf? Makes you realize the number of serial killers that must exist in the pharmy, labscience fields...I mean every buzz word associated with the selling of "west nile" is completely disconnected from the package-it reads like nonsense...like a self important scients (as in the 2nd paragraph) who did thei rhoe work and sucked their professors dick for the A.....and thats why, just like Mitt Romney's election campaign they (the scientists who need to sell their "research" work come up with words like "birds" so already overued by pharma as it uses free news broadcast as adveryizing in the form of "story"... They not only sell this shit, but they produce it....movies like Constant Gardner get zero recognition because international marketing in film has how low can it go'ed itself down to canned human hunting news....everyone knows china is famous for it's ruthlessness....just as americans have been handed their pampers by the chinese...no disrespewct...its embarassing....brb

West Nile Virus
Virus classification
Group:	Group IV ((+)ssRNA)
Family:	Flaviviridae
Genus:	Flavivirus
Species:	West Nile virus

West Nile virus (WNV) is one of the Japanese encephalitis (JE) antigenic serocomplex of viruses, in the family Flaviviridae. It is found in both temperate and tropical regions, having been first identified in the West Nile sub-region in the East African nation of Uganda in 1937.
WNV mainly infects birds, but is known to infect humans, horses, dogs, cats, bats, chipmunks, skunks, squirrels, domestic rabbits, crocodiles^[1] and alligators.^[2] The main route of human infection is through the bite of an infected mosquito. Approximately 80% of West Nile virus infections in humans are without any symptoms.^[3]
Image reconstructions and cryoelectron microscopy reveal a 45–50 nm virion covered with a relatively smooth protein surface. This structure is similar to the dengue fever virus; both belong to the genus Flavivirus within the family Flaviviridae. The genetic material of WNV is a positive-sense, single strand of RNA, which is between 11,000 and 12,000 nucleotides long; these genes encode seven nonstructural proteins and three structural proteins. The RNA strand is held within a nucleocapsid formed from 12-kDa protein blocks; the capsid is contained within a host-derived membrane altered by two viral glycoproteins.

There are Too Many People

There are too many people. There are too many people.  There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. There are too many people. 

Yesterday a woman who could have been Angie Dickinson with a gun in her holster got out of a Chrysler chargerish sort of car...I happened to be at the window changing a CD when I saw them parked. She and her sidekick came up the stairs to my building and I think I heard a downstairs buzzer buzz....a few minutes later they drove off, and immediately after they disappeared mcnair babymamma drives up with their whole family...I guess they missed each other. But then another one of my AA neighbors drives up a few seconds later so they met in hallway and started shooting the neighbor vibe breeze ...but seem like they know each other really well...is it because they're both AA? Is it because she has a baby in her arms and he's genuinely sad for them that baby daddy is in jail? "When's he getting out?" the man asks. "They still don't know yet" BabyMamma answers. Then they mention something about a Grand Jury...and something about "Somebody's the one who's talking..." and by their whispery tone, and direction of voices sound waves I hear him pointing up towards my door! "I have a feeling" he says in a hushed voice as if motioning a pointed  snitchy finger my way!!!  For a FACT another woman in the vicinity has called cops on that couple multiple times, every time they were sounding like they were killing each other...I didnt call the police! Let them kill each other! Disgusting piece of shit people...but because the woman who actually calls is black...they assume it has to be the weird white lady who is better than them in EVERY MOTHER FUCKING WAY> Intellectually, physically....better all around....omg how many times did that nasty little fucktard flirt with me to try to get in my old lady pants! I was so polite to that family, certainly when the asshoel was still just a boy...stealing my bike parts...if I as much as asked "if the boys maybe saw my brakes" Id have ghetto mamma up in my face shaking her bs finger around to distract from the bs reality ...made me realize everytime you see an AA mom on TV defending her kid....how often they must lie...so good at it...

ANyway....I get to be the sacrificial lamb for that scum of the earth? Holy shit....This is the kind of shit that makes me realize why racis exists for intelligent reasons too-not just backwards hateful  idiots...black community is 100 times more racist than white these days...no one would deny it...white poeple basically got brainwashed into believing old racism was as stupid as skin color....not the case.

These piece of shit people would kill me for a 40 in the blink of an eye, destroyed my property etc and gives me an earful of vulgar harrasing hate instead of a simple apology? Maybe an offer to help pay fix it-if not now in future...just plain and simple good neighbor shit! But instead I have this other neighbor insinuating Im a neighborhood problem? Are they FUCKING KIDDING me? The little BMW driving whore doesnt even pay rent in the squat that has been housing these cock roaches fo rthe past 5 years...legally they cant be thrown out for some reaosn....I never gave a shit about tehse poeple's business...until they got into mine....but anyway....the idea that 2 stupid AA people bond over sacrificing me....Im just sickened....some movie or some TV show I saw recently had a line about how "White man really screwed up the plant" they said...black and white in agreement noddingtheir heads....as if!!!! The planet is fucked. Democrats romanticize the plight of minority and immigrants so much so its a fckn joke....millions spent in programs to bankrupt well meaning us social systems...the republicans are right about some things...few but some...brb

Heinz 57 Million

What? Re "Carlos Chalco, 40, who drowned in the waters of the Croton River, has joined a lengthy list of victims who have died in the popular swimming area that is once again becoming the focus of concerns about safety."

I swam in that river in all four seasons from the age of 12. Rode "the rapids" in middle school, as a teenager...a few times...a few of the great joyful memories of my life...but some drunk moron from the Bronx drives up and suddenly I have to hear about rules and regulations to do what? To once again ruin LIFE for millions because some alcholic made another bonehead move and a politician with an agenda cross paths? Fuck them all! Fuck Carlos Chalco and fuck his family if they sue....fuck the people also who are calling for barriers to be installed on the BMT EXT...a gorgeous impressionistic painting sometimes....only a few miles in total length...but because some tennager was texting, or drinking, and their parents cant think of any other way to grieve...to FORCE the public to give up little by little by chipping away the freedom country's supposed to be founded upon...

How do you spell over population? Everytime another human being joins the party they bring with them 5 more tons of sewage, a stomach and usually extremely large families with multiple spawers...did I write about the disgusting landscaper who told me "I want to make another baby wees you..." after bragging about his 2 other kids with different women...short little semi ugly ball of nothing....from where comes his ego? Confidence? It wa disgusting and I hate to say it but in my experience typical...life sucks because south and central america is invading...along with the asians....not so much with the europeans? Oh ya of course the russians...2 many fucking people...there's alwasy gotta be someone shutting down the good stuff....always based on money...and now, for most, the lack of money....I wonder if that 57million they say croton grocey store put away went to help fund wars with/for Turkey.....when I think about the way the son seemed to be relishing in my asking for a lousy $20 for the dog biscuits.....he could tell I really needed it...I could see in that moment a giant vacuum sucking my future out from under me...so what i fnothing can be done to stop it...at least acknowledging it for reality checks....and the guilty parties to take responsibility if only to themselves...

Comparing Hudson and Holmes Murders

Are they completely different? Exactly the same? Stupid? Pointless? Clever?

While looking at the mugshot of the guy who they say killed Hudson's family...again it's so absolutely unbelievable that people loose touch...just as Frankie Foster threatened Louis Armstrong with a 45 while discussing future bookings, I could see the same thing going on today a million times over...imagine if Jennifer Hudson argued with some record company interest etc....the news they give us is not what's going on...

Grandma Jackson goes for a hike and the "news" media takes it's que from a 12 year old girl who wants to tweet in a family that has its tweeted designed and paid for before any communique goes down...its all too much...but if the guy really did kill Hudson's family? And you ask for what? What bone head reason do they give? Sex lol? Money? Broken heartedness like Salina's "friend" manager...confirms human beings are so pathetic.....seems most people can get angry and imagine killing someone in retaliation...but to actually be in the position...more often than not poeple will turn into fainting sheep...I know the feeling of reality where confronting the person I thought I might be capable of strangling but turns out Im a totally pussy (and proud of it-as a woman-but this is the manly man question all men wrestle with...and oif they dont wrestle with it...I wont even go there right now)....but it would seem exploring these feelings is less interesting to media reporters who paint by numbers daily with another bullshit issue debate on "gun control"...people fucking suck...and in my imagination Jane Kartsch suffers profusely, slowly....burns in hell...do I feel better expressing that? Yes but only because Im so broke and stranded and bored out of my skull I cant easily distract myself away from the realization that I have no way to pay any of my bills, utilities...nothing...no work...family helping to support roof over head and a few hucks cash....THis is why people committ suicide..and Jne Kartsch did thsi to this old woman...The truth is even if I heard Jane Kartsch dies some sow horrible death...the damage she did will linger on...nothing will rally change....that show badly she desroyed my last chance to dance....now Im just going out pathetically, pennielessly....it just is what it is...all I have to talk about...the connection between the pointless ruination of my life and what the future holds for all of us when we let such piece of shit people run the show...Oh it would be so nice to give a shit about your opinion

I Just Want To Say I Want to Join the NRA

Couldn't italicize the say in that title...I know absolutely nothing about the organization. I assume the only requirement is to be a gun owner? Since I have no desire to own a gun, and am completely content in trying to maintain that feeling no matter how many more grandtheftauto/(or is it call of duty? the other one?) games yearly, new versions come out every christmas...and we're supposed to pretend only backwards religious fanatics make the connections. We're expected keep believing one thing has nothing to do with the other in order to fit in, find our place in society....Jeanne Cawley pretended to be a dyke and dating me to impress her co workers 25 years ago...she hangs with Libby Pataki...Cuomo marries a wedding planner and so decides gay mrriage will bring in a windfall of revenue for the state from weddings...I mean seriously? WHo's crazy? Bunch of godam hypocrits...powerful hypocrites still hypocrites-just a matter of time...The disinfranchised of the world are still coming no matter how many "debates" and created issues on gun control are forced thru the tube....Fr me ever since Levinson's (1987ish?) movie Toys, it couldn't have been made more clear, no more obvious to what is happening now...what has been being done for the past 25 years of my life...I had the front page of the voice framed on my wall in 1990 "OIL WAR"...I had painted it in 1985-86....named it oil war but dont even remember being aware of anything going on in the middle east....I used to think news was boring, now I realize why my primitively thinking grandma wacked me on teh head a few times for desperately adoring the TV...as if she saw me getting sucked in by the antics of lucy, not separating any of it's joined electrical company propaganda....she wouldnt have used the word propagnada perhaps? Or mayeb I just dont remember her using it..

My grandmommy was talked about like a nut...never to her face pof course...to her face we were all scared to death...but I have to admit now I can genuinely laugh at her attempt at humor when she called my cousins new born baby adolph because she'd married a catholic...Everyone was talking about it, mortified, embarrassed for her...it was years later I saw the baby pic as I loived 100 miles away...anyway when I saw it I had to laugh, because the fucking picture did look exactly like a baby aolph hitler...because of the hair color an dcut a shadow over his little lip (sorry jamie! u know its funny too dont you?) ...I was like comforted in fact because I realized she was just bold enough to call em as she sees em...so honestly...too honestly? How the fuck is it ever possible to be too honest in the darkest deception....THEATRE of WAR hires random mild mannered med students thru craiglsit job openings, threatens family if they talk....mind fields and mine fileds....

This kid didnt do this...its a bigger much more scarier invitaion into being dazzzled into bigger violence? who knows....I heard a few stories about some of the victims and felt I spoke too harshly in my last post...stories I wont ever forget...did truly make an ever lastung impression, and Im grateful to the president for highlighting one of them...but as that advice for all fo us to remember when the gubfire starts everywhere? Keep pressure on our loved one's arteries as they bleed out?

I could have fainted from sorrow on hearing an interview with a grandma who'd just lost her husband weeks before and now a little 6 yr old from the gunfire...but notice how the Disney company owned news uses  brightly colored graphics with hugely dramatic titles: "Movie Theatre MASSACRE" while GE owned news simply calls it "Tragedy in Colorado"...my point is there are a million people out there spawned by a SanduskyHitlerJaneKartschHolmes (if he's in fact guilty) personality...I should take it down a notch so as not to sound as if Im boldly beckoning it....some moron will shoot me too one day...but I will still blame Jane Kartsch for my death...even more than Deborah Me SO Ghetto Moore....

The fore fathers woudl have hoped by now 200 years of evolution would have us all at least capable of shutting the fuck up, listening, and  speaking the questions that are already blatantly right in front of us...asking themselves.

Marilyn Manon comparisons to Columbine were more a distraction from talking about Grand Theft Auto....both by stupid people and the truly evil....anyone is capable of killing anyone at some point if pressed....

Yes Motherfuckers, discussing my exiled descent into poverty could have saved lives...Ask my x-cousin in law laura if I didnt just say to her the day before the shooting "I totally understand why some people go ballistic in McDonald's" because I have the luxury of contemplating the injustie done to me and processing it relatively comfortably, calmy...at teh same time eternally grateful that I am lightyears from ever doing such a thing....but what if I was emotionally kidnapped by a foreign power's operatives...one of the most important communications of how real such insanity is is in the firt Mission IMpossible movie when they take the Iowan parents out of their house in handcuffs naming them as cocaine traffickers or something...its almost comical and yet  who knows!! So sadlt the "amerocan ' people are so vastly blubberishluy brain damaged they cant step back and ask questions...they prefer to cgime in, use it as an excuse to become emotional...vent....I mean its all real...but so disappointing....

Public will never know what happened because they dont really want to...they eat up whatever shit Call of Doodie propaganda put out through DOD budget produced seduction...i mean its embarrassing...in a movie back in 2007 there was a trailer with video game "soldiers" playing in a rock band having fun in sand buggies with chicks and what not....it was like....I was the only one who laughed....people scoffed at me as if I was being disrespectful...it was a recruiting ad fro military service....o man

Where is the REAL Fucking Mugshot?

I mean am I truly the only person on the planet who wonders why it appears that the Aurora police have deleeiberately chosen to Add to the drama of this shooting massacre by using a photo that was supposed to look like a mug shot? As minor a move as this seems...looking deeper into the smallest inconsistenies is where the public gets real answers and closure...not with all the bs, temporary caring...pretending "We will not forget" chanting garbage...Im sorry! But the truth hurts! I wish it wasnt true but although Ive heard names of victims a few times...I already dont remember!...and so that makes me a bad guy for saying so out loud? Because the moronic public only has coffee break time to contemplate the event...In my mind the real story will be lost in all the sensationalism...

Maybe this is the same guy? If it is I would argue photographs do lie. But more importantly, the point is that no one in the media even questions the fact that they don't seem to be pictures of the same guy. No one questions anything.

They just repeat over and over again, insincerely, the words "we will never forget"... "Out of this darkness a brighter day is gonna come..." All CRAP as seen in the effortless way the reporting TV personalities change gears from Aurora, to the weather, to the Olympics, life goes on....Sure we're momentarily touched. I cried when I heard about it...but will be accused of heartlessness by talking this way? That kind of safety in numbers thinking is what gets in the way of understanding how this could have happened....Im having trouble swallowing the fact that the girl who survived the Toronto shooting just happened to be at the shooting in CO...Could never in a million years explain it by myself...but instead of a web of questions and attempts at answering those questions the media just turns it into a show...

Was James Holmes Hired as an actor to enhance the movie goer's experience by the real killerS? Told to...ok stop...they say he was receiving as many as 90 packages at work from UPS...but was he? Were they signed for? A frame job sounds far fetched but makes more sense then believing this mild mannered, gifted person snapped so insanely...as per usual...the public's LOVE of spectacle always trumps any true detailed investigation by reporters...

Look at the orange in his University photo ID. It looks like a prison jumpsuit color...I dont believe this was an accidental choice on part of police to use this photo instead of actual mugshot....The smugshot of his red headed alter ego-could be the same guy...but more importantly might be the REL: guy who got away? The mugshot probably wasnt released because his face is all black and blue from the cops who decided to play judge for all of us with questions left unanswered....the testosterone court of the macho fist seems more powerful than office of the president...seriously? What "law" forbids the fucking presidnet fom walking right into the prison and seeing what might transpire? Even if nothing....the act of trying says so much still... but the president like the hired actor position it really is at this point in time...actually takes a back seat to hot headed cops who left the circumstantial evidence go to their heads? Set a NEW PRECEDENT Mr President. Let the emotional stories of the victims, their heroism, whatever,  be told by those who dont have YOUR access...A law I dont know about athat gives cops more power than the president?  The entire world really would be watching, the families of the victims would really be eternally grateful to see a president with balls simply cut to the chase and ask at the source..."Why?" Even for trying people would applaud....but we're supposed to beleiev the police always know best? No matter how many times theyre caught lying, shooting, killing....nothing is ever fresh anymore...what a totally pasteurized to the death society....no one wants answers because underneath it all people barely care about anything anymore really-so good at pretending and going along with what is expected...as is the word improvise went out the dictionary widnow...i dunno...

What are they going to say to the President if he DEMANDS to talk to Holmes? They'd probably create a story to silence the presidnet...next thing they'll be on death ro together...afterall that's how they do thing sin China...all about big dick convenience running the show...shows...AMC theatres biggest chain in the world...also a deal that went thru 2 months ago?

More Evil than Monsanto is The Public Mass Stupidity

Common sense up and out the windowed....it's legal for parents to polyurethane the nurseries of their newborns, or cosmetic companies to dissect the eyeballs of innocent animals to test news mascaras for ugly whores no matter how much makeup they put on women....but because no one has figured out any other way to console people who have sadly lost people in car accidnets we have to be pushed down into our chairs and pretend to listen to more and mpre bs about why the world isnt the perfect place they try to keep it being on their watch...the egomaniacle, pointless, backwardsness of brb

Tomatogate: Upside down tomato plant garden could be illegal in Newton

So many things just don't make sense. Stupid backwards people are too often alowed to have final say not because of any strong argument but because of the tediousness required to interact with their sorry asses. Can't believe everything you hear, or read online, but I've heard that Sen Dick Durbin, the author of Senate Bill 510 either works for, or used to work for Monsanto...just when it seems people are coming to their senses about the hypocrisy of the centuries old marijuana laws suddenly the illegalization of growing even tomatoes at home is being turned into an issue....Monsanto is obviously thoroughly aware of how completely roll over coward, shit swallowing and spineless the vast majority of the American public is. The mindset that thinks "Who cares. Wtf do I want to grow tomatoes for anyhow?" is the mindset that unfortunately rules..

One day an article will read as follows, and even fewer than today will be alarmed...or broken hearted: "NYC Police Commissioner Raymond Kelly issued a memo to police not to arrest people for growing tomatoes in public view. In June 2012 Gove Cuomo made worldwide headlines when he called for the closing of this much abused loophole to NY's 35 year old decriminalization law. Meanwhile, legislators have introduced fix it bills: A. 7620 and S. 5187. You can learn more by reading this report by Jon Gettman PhD http://www.mpp.org/states/new-york/

Calling All Corps. AMC Anyway

I have to hand it to the Chinese. I imagine they might respect my insight just as much. Give me recognition for noticing at least-as opposed to the typical American mindset that has me thrown into padded white jackets...cant even say the word cell...the idea that that really has more an dmore become opur reality. Average people comfortable trusting their children's future in the hands of tis propogandic image of police...its been in the making for decades...republican party/ Simply Human Nature to party? Will never know...dont necessarily need to know...oh...so I'm writiyng because I juts got off the phone with the Aurora Colorado police dept. Or so I thought.

I called 303-739-something and thought I was speaking with a female dispatcher...openly friendly, seemingly thoughtful...I asked her if she knew who decided not to release the mugshot of James Holmes. She told me to try watching less TV. I swaer to you, call her and ask her if she didnt suggest that I was "letting it get to me"!

How is it Americans became so goddam stupid you could sell them mayonaise made from recycled liposuction as long as it looked the same. So 2 points for the Chinese.

I dont know what it is. But I feel there is a connection between Nick Berg in wherever he was(the first of the beheadings? Dec 2003 just before the war....the puppeteers are not the icons used to play the community chess games on TV news.

Such a simple question!!!! I cant find out why James Holmes' mugshot isnt/hasnt been released, or more importantly who made that decision, because instead the "reporters" would rather repeat over and over again their condolensces by saying "We may never understand..." From the very start convinced they will not understand! Does anyone not find that amazing? The superficiality of it all is embarrassing! Yet so accepted why? Just plain laziness? Fear of boogeyman? Im supposed to be the one who is embarrassed for trying to call to just get my own question answered? Have her infer I need a "break"...loony? Really dumass?

If peopl ewant to "stop" bad things from happening how about they start with the miniature shit? By recognizing personally hypocriys one takes on working answers. Step by step word by word....

I encourage people to call "news rooms" and check out the smug asshole who answers, as they're only used to being seen as a form of celeb or something....I previously had called eyewitness news and some chicks politely says "I have to pass u to someone else..." and it goes to the recording for people who want autographs....so unbelievably arrogant...I tried to show Henry at News12 how exploiting Kerry Knndy's problem for his ratings (her name simply does that and they want to pretend everyone is the same...duh) I wanted to point out he form of bulying the media is constantly engaged in and seemingly oblivious too....he hangs up on me...because he has a "job" to do....no room for mind trusts.

If I ask him why Jennelle Brunelle doesnt edit in a shot of herself knocking on Gov Cuomo's door for "answers" he's thinking Im being sarcastic, when really just trying to point out perfect examples of the foul...this disrespect has neurosurgeons forced to work in McDonalds (if thats a true story about Holmes) but dr's working in McDonald's is Obama;s fault? Really? Stupdity needs to be outlawed? Then the prisons could be in charge of the world andn Monsanto their lovely wife...our new kitchen. Its sad to admit it will happen because people prefer to hold on top their stupid...who's to say? Maybe they should be allowed....I officially lost my train of thought.

mug shoddy

Something's wrong with Aurora police not having yet released mugshot of Holmes, (maybe even that not one person got a pic of him at all), and that the guy was potentially set up as retaliation-no matter how "obvious" it may seem to the drama loving American public, viryually incapable of asking the most basic questions to get at the truth (because it might force the inquirer to revisit their own guilt and hypocrisy as THE very reason , no matter how indirect it may seem) THE very reason things like this happen in the first place...people are SO quick to ostracie someone else over nothing...so much deception so much game...so tired...)

Dan Meyers Bullied Holmes?

Something about the defensive way he uses the word "voluntarily" makes me think this guy drtove someone over the edge...THAT is bullying...

Dan Meyers, the medical school's communications director. said  about James Holmes: "He was in some of the research towers," Meyers says, and "voluntarily left that program."

Parts of research facilities are secured and require card entry. "His access was terminated," Meyers says. "He was in the process of completing withdrawal."

Meyers would not say if any particular event led to Holmes' withdrawal and repeated, "He voluntarily withdrew."

Dick Durbin and Monsanto: An Unholy Alliance Putting an End to Agricultural Freedom. Bill Written By Monsanto Exec to Outlaw Growing Food. Jail for Growing a Tomato...

By Aimee Levitt Tue., Aug. 31 201

Durbin: Slave to Monsanto?

​ A hysterical rumor has been making its way through the Internet over the past few months alleging that Senate Bill 510, the FDA Food Safety Modernization Act, is a threat to small farmers and gardeners who like to grow their own fruits and vegetables. Worse, the bill was introduced by Illinois Senator Dick Durbin who is secretly in the service of the evil overlord Monsanto. Let's look at these allegations, shall we? We'll examine a blog post by Michael Kwiatkowski which ran on firedoglake.com on August 10 and has been widely circulated on Facebook since then. The firedoglake provenance would appear to give it some legitimacy, but look closer. The post ran on The Seminal section. That's not the news section, the one that's staffed by journalists. That's the community site, to which anyone -- even someone with a crackpot theory -- can contribute.

The post is headlined "Congress is Moving to Criminalize Home-Grown Food" and begins, "Congress -- at the apparent behest of Monsanto -- is moving to make it a crime to 'grow, own, trade, transport, share, feed and eat' one's own food." This, friends, is an excellent example of taking quotes out of context and twisting them to serve other purposes.

This piece of "legislative filth," Kwiatkowski notes, is sponsored by Durbin and his seventeen co-sponsors include "Lamar Alexander, Kirsten Gillibrand...Orrin Hatch and the late Ted Kennedy (what the hell?)."

Let it be noted that the original bill was introduced in the Senate in early March 2009, when, we know now, Kennedy still had nearly six months left to live and was, therefore, still able to co-sponsor Senate bills. Maybe the skulduggery lies elsewhere?

The text of the bill, in both its original and amended versions, is available online for any citizen to peruse. There's also a summary, in case you don't feel like plowing through the 266-page original.

The gist of the bill is to expand the authority of the Secretary of Health and Human Services, the Secretary of Homeland Security, the Food and Drug Administration and the Environmental Protection Agency to prevent events like the current salmonella outbreak and current egg recall. (And if you don't think the panic is real, have you tried to purchase a carton of eggs at a farmer's market in the past week and a half? It's been next to impossible.) It would require "each owner, operator or agent in charge of a food facility" -- ranging, presumably, from small organic farms to behemoths like Kraft and Monsanto -- to provide the government with more documentation of potential problems, like, say, salmonella outbreaks, so the government will have an easier time monitoring their distribution and finding out just how far, exactly, the contamination may have spread.

The Homeland Security part comes into play with imported foods, which will be subject to the same increase in documentation as domestic products.

Writes Kwiatkowski:

On its face, a reading of the bill appears to give a reasonable concern for food safety. After all, it is important to protect human health from contaminated and other unsafe foodstuffs. But closer reading reveals that the discretion given to inspectors, and the general wording of the bill as a whole, would ensure that the larger producers would never have to face serious inspection -- it's the non-corporate, smaller food growers who stand to be most affected.

Why's that? Kwiatkowski launches into a long digression about how high-fructose corn syrup is responsible for girls reaching puberty at earlier ages and increased childhood obesity.

One of his own commenters, Rayne, points out that Kwiatkowski's information actually comes from the conflation of three studies. One, by the University of California, links increased fructose consumption in children to increased diabetes. Two other studies, one by Cincinnati Children's Hospital, the other by Emory University, examined the early onset of puberty. The hospital identified weight gain as a possible trigger. Emory blames genetics and birth order. But none of the studies, as Rayne points out, has anything to do with high-fructose corn syrup.

Kwiatkowski believes that the Senate bill will exempt Monsanto from any regulations and allow it to run roughshod over American food and agriculture and drive small, organic farms out of business.

How the bill proposes to do that is unclear. It refers only to government agencies. Monsanto is a corporation, not a government agency.

The link between the bill and Monsanto, apparently, is Durbin's alleged servitude to the Missouri-based corporation. This information doesn't come from Kwiatkowski's post itself, but from a post by Steve Green on the site Poor Richard's Blog entitled "S510 - Illegal To Grow, Share, Trade, Sell Homegrown Food SB S510 Will Allow Government To Put You In Jail ...." (Poor Richard's, among other things, recently suggested that Google and the CIA are in cahoots.) Green, it turns out, actually works for the radio host Jeff Rense.

Rense is best known for being a rabid conspiracy theorist, though he also dabbles in "exclusive" reports of UFOs, pandemics among humans and animals, Holocaust denial and "Obama's stunning march toward martial law." Make of that what you will. (Rense is also a native of St. Louis and an expert on the life and career of the tenor Mario Lanza.)

Anyway, Green's article attempts to summarize the bill, which, he writes, "would give Monsanto unlimited power over all US seed, food supplements, food AND FARMING" and "deconstruct what is left of the American economy."

Some more highlights:

It puts all US food and all US farms under Homeland Security and the Department of Defense, in the event of contamination or an ill-defined emergency.... It would remove the right to clean, store and thus own seed in the US, putting control of seeds in the hands of Monsanto and other multinationals, threatening US security.

Green's summary literally made Gut Check scratch our head and go back to the original bill for a thorough re-reading and then a feverish search of the official bill summary for mentions of the Department of Defense and of seed cleaning.

Foxy Lady

News anchor woman, who pronounces "London (England) as Lon Don, just reported that someone rescued a Fox in Ossining, NY but was required to release it because they didnt have proper licensing. I dont know the exact details but heard something a couple fo days ago about a mother Fox removed from area her kits were in...so this this follow up story seemed to say that someone was trying to keep their family together...but the way they tell the story is like this big dick of a cop, who oversees our life on this planet for our own good always, will decide simply by the importance of upholdoing the law by itself...without taking into consideration the fact that the fox was in more than capable hands, a vertiable fox penthouse.....and the way the "news" folk talk about it...as if they are simply the mouthpiece of police reminding us that we must ask before we wipe til the day we die....

SO Henry? This is why I have called you all these years...in a nutshell...because I am that fox...all that I have had stolen from me, based on some dick actually believing that laws designed to protect us were handed to him to shuv down our throats....agree or disagree?

Lonny Donny

ps The last time I called News12 and spoke with Henry Speaking, it was to point out that they didnt include the name of priest who was assasinated and XColonel who was released for his murder, in the little headline texts across the screen, butI found it interesting that they had plenty of time to dedicate text news flashes about Kerry Kennedy having a car accident...picture of themselves knocking on her front door etc....feeling him out as to whether he sees it or not, if he is in fact a part of it, or if he is really that shal LOW....maybe all of the above...

Good Luck to the fox family.

Here's How I define "Bullying"

As usual, Im flat broke. But today (saturday actually) I was trying to stay positive, focused and find some way to make money before everything comes crashing in in next week or so...my mom generously loans me $100 towards that goal...so as I go to deposit it at Wells Fargo ATM...I discover I have a -$86 balance...I prEyed "please no, dont make me spend a lot of time dealing with this .... it didnt occur to me that Brendon at the Croton Wells Fargo had deliberately moved my last $12 into the "new" free checking account he created without my knowledge on purpose until today...after all the SHIT went down. Donna (the 400 pound woman who moves with a walker) did a similiar thing to me about 6 or 7 years ago...but I never imagined she would go as far as she did today...there has to be a law against a bank manager deliberately rigging my account so that no one else is able to fix the screw up (caused by them-but she was trying to deny)....Notice for example ho each overdraft in the screenshot specifically says BLOCKBUSTER Donna? Why would she fight with me on that? While looking at the bank's own info right before my eyes she's trying to tell me that the overdraft charges had nothing to do with blockbuster...but this is why Ive turned into Nixon recording everything Donna! So people cant waste any more of my time than they already have....

They get away with this kind of bullying because I seem way too ocd with my complaint over a measly sum of money....but that sthe thing-its not about the money as much as how I tried to plead with 2-3 people over the phone at the Croton Wells Fargo just before noon closing time to straigten out this screw up before weekend was over...from 11am-2pm I lost the momentum of what was starting out as a good day, then I became so depressed I imagined my lovely funeral one day...the only escape from pigkunt obese hiPPocrits who go out of their way to see to it I suffer...Because of the way fat Donna bank manager screwed around in my account, she made it so that no one was able to remove those overdraft fees...and because she did this to me years back, I recognize the pure unadulterated HARASSMENT, bullying plain and simple.... I BEGGED her to just keep it clear and simple but she was determined to convolute, complicate....make me as miserable as she is, stuck in the trashed body god gave her that was probably at one time very healthy....the visual I have of the now, today's, naked Donna on a toilet unable to get up easily fro years and years-must corrupt any mind eventually...and that sickness, that sadness is why she provokes me into fighting with her....as if she wants to get me to curse...so she can conspire with the Grants about it...

How can she get away with this...oh I forgot to upload the (very boring but right on target) recordings of 800wells fargo operators AND his supervisor BOTH in agreement that what Donna did to my acct (rendered it unmanageable by anyone else I might call to fix problem) was not proper protocol, very weird, and deliberately meant to sabotage me...after I begged her to be reasonable...Brendon was supposed to credit my acct $5 because of an error charge, but instead he moved my very last few bucks to a new checking account so that when $15 in charges came in nothing was there...at first I thought it just a mistake...but very quickly figured out that he did it on purpose-perhaps at Donna's urging....I dunno...all I know is I have her lies all recorded...

Actually Ill go upload those tapes now....its subtle the way I get the guy on phone to admit what she did looks like a personal vendetta...but then even his supervisor agreed...and when I said "What do you mean u cant do anything, (after telling me she did this to me to screw me up by taking what little money I had from me!)...or really leaving the acct unworkable...cant deposit money till its cleared up...so cant pay bills etc etc...

Im too tired...will write more tomorrow and for the rest of my life...

Dears Wells Fargo I even have Donna on tape telling me I cant tell anyone about how she was "helping" me the last time I had an overdraft charge....IM fuzzy on the detials...but I recognize that trick she does by refunding partially part of the fees....now I realize she does that to make sure no one else can decide to fix the problem....why would she do this....thats 

must go beddy bye will be writing about THESE WELLS FARGO HARASSMENT TAPES for rest of life....This is bullying by Donna-someone who surely was bullied silly as a child....so now she takes it out on anyone as her mood strikes?

Dear Julius 7/15/12 2am

Hair Straightening Up there with Anorexia

Psychologically speaking, longterm, chemical maintenance, artificial life support of a hairstyle is worse than anorexia. Everytime Ive ever bought a hair or chemical beauty product Ive fantasized that it would be the LAST I'd ever buy. Partially because of a cost or what not, still underneath it all a feeling of this cant be good...its a disgrace that the majority of african american women are too superficial or insecure or just plain totally fake(?) to roll out of bed and start living their own life force instead of starting out with the exponential poisoning of what's left of babies water supply. Its just a fucking fact.

SOS Jagger

The DNAstory, hyped as an Occupy Wall Street protest didnt prove to be the big break police were hoping for in the odd 2004 murder "mystery"of Julliard student Sarah Fox.

The "evidence" said to have been found on Fox's CD player, was (inferred deliberately) contaminated, GET THIS, by a police department employee who had also done some work with the Office of the Chief Medical Examiner The New York Times reported)

The medical examiner's office spokeswoman Ellen Borakove tried to tell The New York Times. "We are still actively investigating The detective who handled some chain at the protest site was a possible cause of contamination, NBC 4 New York reported. As if he hangs out with another 2 NYPD cops, some couple theyre reporting tonight who tried to hire a hitman...Im staying up to watch that one because the wifey cop looks like the cop who beat me up, only less black and more hispanic...so its probably not her in actuality but symbolically, not only IS it her, it is every sick thing thats wrong on the planet...not because of the murder as much as the stupid piece of shit reason people kill each other over....I want to be a prog=fessional slapper...put cops like these women in front of me and pay me to slap them just hard enough that I dont hurt myself....sadly these days thats not much of a slap. But it would feel good on my heart. and Jane too of course.

The chain was reportedly found after Occupy Wall Streeters chained subway station doors open in March, allowing people to ride for free. But "news" stations arent interested in touching any stries about corrupt cops...and if they do they know they only have to wait for it to blow over...poeple forget....but that would only be another kind of hell.

How is this news (Headline Below) especially for a rag called "Business Insider"? It makes me think these poeple really do kill people  like hunters for their own stories...not one or 3 freaks with 3 names celevrated in news every few months...but 100s, 1000s of people that are simply capable...no discussing no denying...just that is our reality? News that makes people fuck and overpopulate. Poverpopulate. Cheapening human life? Is it all really meant to blow anyway? Or is that just what the cowards who hold onto their business dearly tell themselves.

DON'T MISS: How The Cops Finally Made An Arrest In A 20-Year-Old Murder Of A 'Strip Club King'

Leave Lance Alone

I didnt wear a yellow band, I didnt even catch his story, barely knew who who was but cheered him on no problem if subject ever cam eup...so why must Lance Armstrong be a spoon fed subject to my brain thru media news as entertainment created...to make what kind of life? career? profit? contribution? TV and film has turned into second generation mediocrity because why? 

What is the USADA? WHy do they try to sound like a part of the governemnt or court system? Oh! Thats how China must do it! But people want to pretend thats nutty pov....Reality check... Another Bush era nazi design...when you read the "About" page of domain www.usantidoping.org you realize what a wizard of oz scenario it all is...there is nothing  "official" about the word "national" or even the word "official" for that matter....Im not saying any lies are ok...but the desire to see Armstrong's life as filler for Michal Jackson scandal, always masquerading news worthy of discussing on a planet in peril....its so much worse than any drug..the self serving hate, the misguidedness, all of it, the very source of any society's poverty is exactly this...stupidty and denial.

Prey for Sundae

If sunday were a day where money stopped exchanging hands...literally...no more offering dishes passed...like the divine shakedown it is...no I apologize...of course good work...but hat sneaky snale business vines, microscopically....my back is broken and I can only move to a point where I have to choose some degree of normal functioing or push it and end up not walking for weeks...Im not angry that I cant afford to pay someone to help me work through that physical therapy, that actually gave a shit, Im angry about why I cant afford it...money can be replaced with ANYTHING. Or can it? The only difficulty is getting 7 billion plus mules to share the visions...or theres a lot more to it.  Vlue System term thrown around a lot words barely have ipact when theyre the most important...it only takes one mother who loves her kid, who needs to feed her kid, to financially rape any guy...it happens everyday...the guys I think often barter with themselves about how much beauty a woman might be  bringing to the table as whethetr the rape is worth it or not...took me a long time to realize the degree to which its all physical with guys...I guess I never wanted to believe it was that basic....I dont know...bt I really meant to be writing about why health care as a term is a joke...no one has time to care about anyone long enough before someone comes a collecting for something and the freedom money seems to bring, the relief a better way to piut it...its like magic in a way but obviously its coming form somewhere else....I may have been a moron to believe money didnt matter for most people (this long ago) but Im getting that either way it doesnt matter....it makes no sense no one cares about me...but then when I realize no one knows how to value anything anymore, I stop taking it personally...and try to keep enjoyng my breath..my neighbors sent me another threat against my dog yesterday ,  with management letter head formally warning me I will be fined $50 if dog isnt on leash...literally a nice happy neighbor trots by with his mutt..no leash as theyve done for years...I dont ever do that! I ...anyway....point is I emailed this same board links to Nick Santino story of the guy who was so guilted out over killing his dog he killed himself. Something about his condo board told him he had to get rid of dog or leave, and somehow he...the idiot probably thought "Oh Its just a dog" like a goldfish flushing out of convenience...an animal...a lot for people think that way...then he saw the light..couldnt handle the responsibility...so heartbreaking...so sad....but I dont have to try to remember him...he lives a part of my life...as here I am tr for 10 years having the same thing done to me...I could argue worse(?)...point is...THEYRE STILL DOING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Healthcare lol? How about anihilate all sources of misdircetd stress. When someone KEEPS coming back for more for example..like my Janey Kartsch...I asked these people in emails to consider what an emotional toll their threats, of fines, letters, abuse, what all of it has taken on me over years!!! One local lawyer told me there is definitely a case for me to win here...oh but wait! I called his law firm partner (pops) a nazi online in 2001 because he threatened me with contempt of court for saying "same to you" while suing a taxi cab company over a quality of life issue....ther I (capital I) was trying to better my neighborhood...poeple on top of each other...but from his 5 acres mansion life he couldnt get that....wrote me off as a frivolous psycho wasting court time over a $100 small claim...the money was symbolic! Can I get an amen? A mongoloid retard alwasy has a fighting chance the stupidity so think. Healthcare lol? Then these people ban me from the local coffeehouse...weeks months after the near arrest I ranted about it in an open mic at town coffee house, brought the house down...even the owners who most hated me had to smile and put a light arm around me to say "hey"!....so ya...thats why no one ever wants to help me because they'd rather imagine theyre right and my death insignificant....recognizing that irony is more effective for maintaining health than daily doses of iron.

How many times I wonder have arrests been made of people who were bottom line, nothing more than a romantic threat to some love interest (or worse). Would anyone argue it's never happened before lol? Then you realize "holy shit" it happens every goddam day. Poeple have their lives ruined because Robin cant diet, or Jody thinks she's supposed to be with LaShalle...Let me vomit please.

My latest attempt at begging for work , an hour ago or less, was based on a great idea for my own little landscaping design co...passe I know...but of course zelig here did her fare share before teh Croton ladies started putting their flower boxes down around 2001....its not about being first its about the recognition that peers give each other while coming up together...to the end in fact...by giving credit where credit is due...no wait thats not what I was getting at...Its not about recognition its about the irony that some designer lady in croton not only wouldnt me me an apt for one month when I needed a place...she practically shoooed me off her property when my dog had bene lost in the woods for a long while...then she gives me the stink eye at neighbors across the street when our dogs are playing...you can feel when people have ostracized you...I know NOTHING about this woman but her menopausal moodswings direct my life...butterfly effect...is what IM doing making sense to anyone yet?

Pacific Lionfish Terrorism

What if Pacific Lionfish were released into Atlnatic by someone who knew what they were doing. But because the woman he thought he loved dumped him for other nonsense elsewhere..he decided to take it out on the world. Is this not terrorism? But a million times worse than 911 because no one is going to tell me my life is worth more than 1/3 chunk of entire planet? How could it be? I would be willing to sacrifice if I knew it really helped or made a differnce, mattered etc...but the world is full of self improtant human beings who's sole purpose is to clog toilets with donuts and kill even when theyre not killing....dabbling in some commercially induced mating dance until the day they die...as if that sthe one goal...to stay yoiung and fuckable looking....my ultra conservative grandmommy had more in common with John Lennon than she could allow herself to know...the feeling that TV was being used to brainwash....so hard for everyone to find the words....

Propaganda is bad for freedom, when it is disguised to manipulate, so insultingly....

My Dog Loves Ground Flaxseed

The only thing i forgot was to sprinkle a little flaxseed on top of the Dog'sD'Ouevre...

The only effort that went into this dog treat was the cooking of the bisquits the day before. maybe 40 minutes in total time with a few buck total cost for a months worth of treats. I used to hear stories about people not being able to afford commercial dog food (partially poison) and giving them up for this pathetic excuse of a reason...banana I would discard not to my liking anyway, a blueberry that fell on the floor, whats left over of the watermelon, he loves the rind...he wont eat the spinach unless its smothered in something...its so easy to research the basic dos and donts about dog diet...but basically the dog will be healthier with human scraps in the end....and even if only as a supplement to purinish....the nutrients might make the difference between developing cancer, becoming more obese etc

It did seem liek I had to teach my dog to eat an apple when he was young...I filmmed him playing with an apple like a ball and about 10 minutes into it I captured the look on his face when his teeth went through and he tasted the sweetness...humans cant teach children or dogs when there is such a lack of meditation and patience....so much to take in....he even ate the blueberry...grown from my little $8 blueberry bush....I get looks from retarded people who think Im retarded the slower I start to move..brb

Please Do Move On Move On

Its just too much at times-and some of them are so insulting to the intelligence...At some point I became so sick of Move On Org contact I just don't know...but once in a while it seems a relief its there keeping an important realization of another depth of human ugli on notice....But I dunno...LYndia StorY? L'india story? IN any case here it is-just in case it is true:

Hi—I wanted to make sure you saw my petition the other day.

According to the U.S. Navy's own estimates, the use of high-frequency underwater sound for testing will deafen 15,900 whales and dolphins and kill 1,800 more over the next five years.
Whales and dolphins depend on sound to navigate and live. The Navy is required to include comments from the public on their Environmental Impact Statement (EIS), so your signature and comment on my SignOn.org petition could help stop this naval program and save the lives of these ocean creatures.

My petition says:

Stop the killing of 1,800 whales and dolphins and the deafening of 15,900 more by ceasing the operation of the Navy's underwater sound system in the Hawaiian Islands, the California and Atlantic Coasts, and the Gulf of Mexico.

Will you sign the petition? Click here to add your name, and then pass it along to your friends:

http://www.moveon.org/r?r=276609&id=45549-7267268-Jlfwacx&t=1

Thanks for your help.

–Lyndia Storey

PS: The comments must be in by July 10, 2012, so please sign today.
This petition was created on SignOn.org, the progressive, nonprofit petition site that will never sell your email address and will never promote a petition because someone paid us to. SignOn.org is sponsored by MoveOn Civic Action, which is not responsible for the contents of this or other petitions posted on the site.

Friendly Fire - Friendly Driver

PAUL CLARKING VOELKE

The death of Major Paul Clark Voelke another cover up? Why the news now almost a month later? Still barely mentioning the idiocy behind the unnecessary orphaning of his 2 young sons? This is how the obits read all over the internet: (no mention of the bone head move that apparently killed him? Hit by his own team's motor vehicle? Isnt it amazing how far reaching the control is of the Pentagon's news...TV only mentions his award winning life...but the fact is...the only thing sadder than a father loosing his life and leaving his 8 year old boy for one...is the denial...a stupid war all the medals in the world cant give these people the eyes to see he shouldnt have been ther ein the first place. Im sorry to say that...but Ive been saying it since before the THEATRE of 911 was commenced.):

June 15, 1976 - June 22, 2012

Monroe, NY

Major Paul Clarke Voelke, 36, was killed June 22 in Mazari-Sharif, Afghanistan. Paul was born June 15, 1976 in Manhasset, NY to Lorraine and Erich Voelke. A 1994 graduate of Monroe-Woodbury High School, Major Voelke attended the United States Military Academy at West Point graduating in 1998 with a Bachelor's degree in European History and was commissioned as a Second Lieutenant in the United States Army.

Major Voelke served 14 years as an Infantry Officer and over the course of his career earned several honors and awards including the Bronze Star Medal with two Oak Leaf Clusters, the Meritorious Service Medal with one Oak Leaf Cluster, and the Joint Service Commendation Medal. As a Captain, he was selected for the Joint Chief of Staff's Internship where he earned his graduate degree from Georgetown University with a Master's of Policy Management in 2007. Major Voelke was a veteran of Operation Joint Guardian in Kosovo as well as four tours of duty in Iraq and Afghanistan and last served as the Executive Officer for 1st Battalion, 30th Infantry Regiment, 2nd Brigade Combat Team, 3rd Infantry Division at Fort Stewart, Georgia.

Paul is survived by his high school sweetheart and wife of 12 years, the former Traci Maultasch, also of Monroe, and his two sons, Andrew (AJ) 8, and Benjamin 6. He is also survived by his mother and father, Lorraine and Richard Griffenkranz; grandmother, Virginia Carolan; brothers, Christopher Voelke and Thomas Griffenkranz; sister, Christine Griffenkranz Macleary; mother-in-law, Bonnie Maultasch; sister-in-law, Shannon Voelke; brothers-in-law, Adam Maultasch and Michael Macleary, and many loving aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, cousins, and friends. Paul is preceded in death by his father, Erich Voelke and his father-in-law, David Maultasch.

A wake will be held in Major Voelke's honor Thursday, July 5, at Smith, Seaman & Quackenbush, Inc. Funeral Home, 117 Maple Avenue, Monroe, NY from 4 to 8 p.m. A Funeral Mass will be held at 10 a.m., Friday, July 6, at Chapel of The Most Holy Trinity, 699 Washington Road, West Point, NY. A burial will follow in West Point Cemetery, Washington Road, West Point.

In lieu of flowers, the Voelke family requests donations be sent to the following address: Paul Voelke Memorial Fund, Bryan Bank & Trust, P.O. Box 1299, Richmond Hill, GA 31324.

Toll Hikes Paying for Freedom Tower

NEW YORK (CBSNewYork) — AAA has filed a lawsuit against the Port Authority of New York and New Jersey over the recent bridge and toll hikes.  The law requires interstate tolls to be set at just and reasonable levels. AAA says last week’s 50 percent toll hikes at Hudson River crossings violate federal law.  Crossings that now cost $12 are expected to climb even higher to $15 by 2015. To see all the new toll and PATH rates, click here.  Robert Sinclair of AAA said the increases are “unprecedented and unlawful.” He added that according to a prior legal ruling, toll revenue must be used for transportation initiatives.  In response to the lawsuit, the Port Authority said they’ve reviewed the complaint and found it without merit, but motorists who spoke with CBS 2 disagree.

Pac Man. New Portraits of U.S. Olympic Athletes Fantastic. Like Breath of Life

News brainwashing decides what we like or don't like i.e. WABC tonight: "Portraits of U.S. Olympic athletes that have been slammed for "shoddy" lighting and awkward poses of such stars as Michael Phelps were the result of lack of preparation time and supplies, the photographer said today in the face of widespread criticism." Bullshit! They're more real than anything Ive seen from that level of propaganda dept. in so long, it almost looks like it's afraid to be natural...still more stylized than Id like to see..but who the FUCK wants to compete over the photography with what is going on in the world? The media should be hunted like pac man. Pac men.

The Bush Family has so finally destroyed the American's reputation around the world , that basically all that an Olympic Athlete has left is a life and death choice shining true self vs the plastic machine. Anyone who is good at the machine, cant be good. The degree to which the image is such a business that photographers compete by calling each other out publicly with dangerous faux discussio about what millions of people are supposedly in agreement with their critique...its fucking absurd!

I want to know what was really behind the hype fro movie Magic Mike. I thought it was funny my mom wanted to go see it, so I went with her and only because she paid did I feel rude to just leave prematurely...actually IM glad I didnt leave ebacuse then I would have alwys thought I may not have given it a chance to really know...now I really know...Mathew McCon's wedding shower to his family? A way of giving one's celebrity publi one last hurrah at enjoying him strtech his arms up a lot and smile with his cute smile? wtf? The entire movie I felt like I was being suffocated with miles of wrapped pantyhose around my head, it was the most nothing, regurgitating yuckiness...cant remember ever feeling so much pintlessness...the dialogue was suffocating emptiness, as if all was riding on the look, the image...the oh so professionally shot images of nada....it was totally gay, nothing sexual really just a lot of confused women acting like they really believe their giving it back to th eguys somehow by acting out...so stupid have always thoight so...omg adam kap (hate you but) remember Jeannes party? U warned me....I So too wanted to believe in the humor and surprise factor...x factor my x........it makes me long for Jud Fry the hired hand on Aunt Eller's ranch in Oklahoma, the mysterious and dangerous loner...do they have him kill or almost kill someone to scare the girls away from wrassling with real testosterone? As if no one should ever want to know why Jud was ostracized from the picnicking crowd Curly and Laurie hung with...

I want a man who is what he is...bugars, sweat, the grease, the mess, the violence hopefully pointed at our mutual enemies....all the parts of real people....but now even race car drivers look like soft tween oliver twisty , just girly men I guess really describes it....Ive never been compelled to get my head into or around anyone else's thing....its when the media seems to have resorted to spread eagling the anUS for more of that once well respected American rep around the world...of all the issues that plague any chance of a future for planet earth...and millions suddenly want to make their health insurance family of convenience a hot topic? It has to be the choinese...but ofi american's are too dumb to catch on, I guess its the inevitable end of our beautiful country that once was...and has now been turned into a giant walmart where 100s of millions of dunken donut addicts who have no clue beyond their own pathetic self serving short sightedness....the Bush family has created more hate than ever, a hate that cries out for the kind of violence that entertains...the military industrial complex includes news as a part of that COMPLEX too.....

Try Preoccupying Wall Street

Why Wall Street's Self Serving Tactics Win? They create laws that keep police involved in poor people's lives. Bickering petty shit a step up from the salacious vice so closely connected to the fine line between sex and rape and lies and murder. The anti-intellectualism is no accident. As lawnglasduhguyshavdarepussy...and the waste of time but entertainingly designed warfare, with colors and easy to spot mass characters in between...so easy to keep the flocks preoccupied.If I had that kind of money and power at my disposal I might be just as ruthless, seemingly cruel...but the truth is ugly and ugly so often the truth.

It's like a world that caters to the imbecile thanks to the well meaning Donahue's and Oprah's and Kennedies....Maybe that's why the republican party is so sandusky when it comes to direction. They're right to be revolted by the democratic party's altruistic numbers games, but what a bunch of sodomizing rappists..and masterful at hiding it...so so so many...thats how it works its probably so common...people subconsciously back each other..Die and Let Die is same as Live and Let Live? Opposite for purposes of this argument...which is attempting to prove that miracles can even be found thru the breath it takes to patiently scan thru poorly written text. I dont know why I remain hopeful.

But someone was taking about how the TA is building the "freedom" tower with toll money? Always gonna find contractors behind every historical moment, looking for and creating oppotunities to budget themselves in...Eisenhower once warned that it would become so corrupt that one day the MIC would perversely be so out of touch it would play along with a self created 911 scenario, the same way movie stars sometimes marry to publicize themselves...I remember when they started talking about Bush II's war, reading about budgets for marketing, equipment and stsudios to be built in the desert countries....Al Jazeera etc...just because it doesnt have an obvious label on it doesn't mean a lot of planning didnt going into hiding the planning....

Petition For Michelle Brown News12

I dont give a crap about a news person's look! But this woman is being sabotaged-it sticks out like a sore thumb-that's the only reason Im commenting....Sure she's gorgeous..her hair looks fine in a still photo, but when she moves...her hair doesnt...its AWFUL! I cant believe they keep letting her go on air...they obviously are planning to fire her in near future so dont put much effort into her on air appearance...

I want to create a petition for Michelle Brown of News12 Westchester to be allowed to, and encouraged to wear an Afro.  Igf she were to do it herself she would probably be fired because these news people are so stupid and backwards...seriously the makeup/hair dept should be checked...her hair looks..horrible...Her current hair style represents repression, delusion, superficiality, destruction of the environment...she could be a star like Dianna Ross in 70s surprising everyone with  a natural look...let it grow Michelle! She has an exquisitely beautiful face and could put it off so well, she would inspire other women to follow her lead...Go for it Michelle.

Regulatory Arbitrage

Derivative solutions..pensions, gold, jp morgan and italy's currency swap...1999(?) italy accepted into EU by fooling regulators Goldman Sachs and Greece similar thing...largest sovereign derivative deal in world history...and off balance sheet loan...very expensive form of borrowing for a country...not unlike and Goldmans earned billions on that deal...Big global investment banks eager to lend to desperate governments...greece would borrow on Germany and so on and so on....the Olympic games EUphoria...reminded me on 1984 LA Olympics.....Reagan Inspired showbusiness and nothing more (the man whose first act in the hite House was to rip down the solar panels on the roof...THAT is bullying on darth vader level...but the majority of the american people have been turned into a swirl of rats.......governments pretend to keep public finances in order and their partners pretend to believe them...it's what goes on everywhere...thats why a mental sort of emergency exit is needed so people dont panic, and kill one another....

Fro

Words. Is intellectuality a word? My dog just looked up from corner of the vacuum as if to ask me with his eyes if it was a good idea to attack it. As if the machine were sucking up all of the shed hair he put so much time into cultivating...who knows what he's thinking. He just doesn't have the words, so that's why when he ignored my quiet "No. Please just dont?" with my eyes, I completely laid into him with in, pushing his paw aside...and then suddenly that little shuv gave him full on natural rights to strike back with an actual nip...just like human beings when resorting to body language for fighting....when the intellect too often shuts down so quickly, too easily....when no one has even tried to evolve past blows. So easily it happens that it's become a sort of industry, fake fighting, wrestling, caged fighting, cops shows entertaining not when people show discretion, or talk something out quietly, etc but people want to see the blood and spit...

There is this local news anchor name Michelle Brown who is like a poster child for sickening thought of how many gallons billions of women go through in order to chemically straighten their hair. She is an exquisite beauty other than this joke of style she wears over her thinker...It looks like 6 pieces of black vinyl when she moves, slightly natural at the front of the part as if she has barrette hanging off a braid sticking out back where we cant see...so unnaturally coiffed....I want to call her and tell her "You are so beautiful you could pull off any size afro...Like Dianna Ross making a statement in teh 70s...the natural beauty shining through-so incredibly powerful, and exuding a sense of priority in place....Everything this emperor's new clothes situation represents is so indicative of the fake-conservative, denial, hypocritical mindset coem to represent the status quo...

I want to start a campaign to encourage Michelle Brown to go fro...Maybe she would love to but is afraid of loosing her job because it might make the wrong 4 people on the planet uncomfortabls...those 4 people are the head bullies and the mignons who act on their behalf the actual bullies...just like everyone else afraid to loose money or a job if they dont "behave" and growing one's own natural hair is our biggest problem...maybe thats hopeful actually...all we need to is recognize the depth of the stupidity to turn it around.

Emergency Exit

I feel responsible to some degree for bringing as many people as I possibly could into this internet tron...Once in a while I imagine it makes sense to have an emergency exit plan, because everything humans do ends up becoming corrupt at some point...sensible people have realized that it might be abused in a multitude of ways by everyone who uses it...I couldn't resist more and more turning myself inside out in what feels like outerspace...free to be lost in thought, rich enough to have the luxury thanks to the peacetime...we've obviously come to tale for granted...life used to be perfect...my sleepy hollow...now its like a giant shipyard of orphanages, turning work into taking care of and paying for other people's reincarnated sperm...emotionally so more than anything else. A mess of a system because people have lost an ability to stay sharp, appreciate the power and necessity of honesty, and simply keep it together almost effortlessly...like it used to be...before "Dynasty" TV type republican propaganda decided it needed to sell shampoo globally...a larger holder for it's big dick...I cant think of what else it might boil down to...Just pocreation and it's natural course and direction? Im honestly not judging just discussing the facts...shit art sold itself like a whore, devalued everything because "showbusiness" surpassed reality...lost my train of thought...

Oh ya. I dont know what the answer is to being open and public with one's info vs driving one's self crazy by watching someone else do it for you? I started blogging in around 1998 as an SOS, a desperate scream for help from the catskills...few were listening and certainly no one enough to help anyway....I dont think I regret my choice because I reallu had nothing else...it became a life line, just like a moment in time when I considered being an actress, or a songwriter, showbusiness shit in other words...I considered it an option when my family had literally lost home..and couldnt think of any other way to try to go after a large sum to put a house back etc....I feel like I forgive myself for ever thinking showbusiness is ever really noble...ya there are greats and demi gods and gods...but thats exactly the whole propagandic danger-and when it cant recognize delusion anymore...the sheep follow right into this fucking shit music called Rhianna? Its like they may has well put twot on a stick and call it culture....like a bunch of gd chimpanzees......

Oh ya so the emrgency exit for me is to just go on doing what Ive been doing...but always pointing out...its electricity...its not always accurate and it even kills...its good its bad...its electricty....my soul feels like an egg frying very slowly...extremely slowly, almost not frying at all...but ya slowly frying....my body hurts so much all I think about is my burial...the coolness of the mud on my flesh, even though dead...reconnecting...maybe coffins arethe ultimate ridiculousness of picturing heven as a place we need to bring our own outhouses, or folding chairs in case god like sto tell long stories and u need to sit a bit....as if any of this chronic deceit is worthy bouncing in th eway...fucking up the seamless streamlined rush through an eye of an needle type feeling when we pass...etc....I want to be buried in cool mud up to my stomach right now...god that would feel so good I think...serious relief...like a massage...