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Sunday, August 19, 2012

Daniel James of Peekskill Coffee House

About 15 months ago this asshole gave me a hard time for refusing to pay 50 cents for ice in a drink. When he threatened to "ban" me from the coffee house I started to tell him how ironic it was that I JUST started to come back in after like 10 years (because I'd had some similarly petty bullshit incident with some other trblmaking egomaniacal "barista" then) Before I could get a word out he said "Leave now or I'll call the police." If I was intending to cause "trouble" I would have had my camera out right? I was gonna make a quick point and go, but this dick made a HUGE scene involving TWO POLICE CARS. and I want him charged with the crime of reporting a false incident.

 Anyone who knows me...knows I see red on hearing that sentence-particulalry because it's nothing more than bullying, and in fact borderline criminal too - that is to file a false police report etc. But anyway...so I just left and never intended to go back. That is until Darby a boss/yoga bizz partner invited me into the coffee house to hear her friend Joe play one sunday afternoon...I told her "Well you know what happened with Daniel a couple months back, so I guess I could try. Worse thing is they might tell me to leave-so Ill leave....I was there for about 30 mins and it all seemed to be ok...until I got up to go talk to Jeremy Tracy's little brother on other side of room. Randy Sharpe of PCH walked right up interrupting my conversation with someone Id not seen in like 20+ yrs and...well thats why I uploaded it...to http://www.bullyofthemonth.com ...click on pictures to see the "call the police" game they play with me....Randy about 18 months before that had come up to me at a table to tell me my crack was showing in my pants (witness Madeline DeVivo) ALWAYS trying to get a rise out of me. I always tried to ignore them...

Keep in mind this asshole Daniel gave me a hard time because I didn't have an extra 50 cents for ice over a year ago...like 15 months ago to be exact. He threatened me with police then....

So as I was driving away from Starbucks Yorktown yesterday I was surprised to see him. Ive gone in there for years and years and have never seen him there before-as a matter of fact I didn't recognize him at first. I thought twice about saying anything which was why I was driving away anyhow.  So when I looked at him on driving out I couldn't ignore his snotty gesture, I had to ask him why. Why!? So I got out of car and walked to talk to him at his little patio table on other side of iron fence.  I left my car running with my dog there...not intending to be more than 2 minutes.....Improvising,  I said "Have you met my brother the chief of police?" Attempting to be somewhat lighthearted about making my little point, I expected the nice old santa claus looking man to back me up and play along so as to teach this doosh a lesson...when this kid (mid twenties?) stands up, grabs his phone and within a minute is demanding to police on other end he get a restraining order against me-making up stories about how Im stalking him etc etc...ok have to upload now before I loose this hopefully will be able to continue and edit after-this is going to be my focus for a while. I want this kid to be the first person actually CHARGED with trying to file a false report with the police.


Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Emergency Dog Food Recipes

Yesterday Pavlov got garbonzo beans and a carrot. This morning I gave him half a cup of greek yogurt with oatmeal AND a carrot....I'll buy some bananas later thanks to a friend lendingme some money :)...and my dog will outlive your dog anyday...the sodium granted is a bit high maybe (120mg per cup) and the sugar is pretty high(never bothered to look for myself-so good to know) but its all good for now...spaghetti also works...thanks to Mrs Mahoney for taking my mind out of the square boz of dog fooding from the age of 14..

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Inflammationkill

ABout 19 years ago, I started to notice that I  had a strong sense about the feeling of inflammation occurring even if I only ate a small amount of certain foods....I remember thinking my friend Tracy was the perfect person to help me articulate this personal discovery...I don't remember anyone mainstream talking about medical knowledge other than dieting, and so certainly don't remember anyone talking about connection between heart disease andn inflammation....so I was all caught up in trying to isolate, or observe, really in fact, allergy also I guess...I don't know..thats the thing...I didnt even have the word "inflammation" in mind-but THE perfect description of what I felt when my body seemed to start gradually blowing up....it had nothing to do with hunger...always about just feeling desperately alone, disconnected and food was the sweetest boyfriend....but as usual brutal in the end...via pending diabetes or morbid obesity....Instead of killing myself I take solace in trying to figure out what I did to be so disconnected from what my life should have been. The anger comes from knowing how petty, deceitful, pointless the destruction, the sabotage, the general hate didnt have to be...didnt have to be that way...
Anyway this is about communication in general...not just my whiny insecurity....this was a "friend" from the age of 10. Our mothers didnt like each other, but mine only once pointed out a complaint or two...I learned later Tracy was pretty much trained to hate, resent, it was like her mom probably talked so much about what a snob she thought my mother was Tracy gradually, subconsciously started seeing me as a prissy type I think, she would often make fun...but we all made fun of each other and laughed just as hard, harder...or so I thought..I dont know at what point she stopped taking me seriously exactly, but I foolishly wasted my breath opening up to a girl who was just laughing about me behind my back....I dont know for how many years...so all of my "scientific discovery conversations" werent connecting with that other tree in the forest....a lot like a guy who just uses a woman for pieces at a time I guess...
I have lost everything...and now my desire to endure, put on a front, while th ebody physically startes to crap out you realize...its coming...the day....and when I die, when Im gone. There'll be one child born in this world to carry on to carry on....(disclaimer. This is not a suicide note. Its dangerous to talk about death too muvh as it upsets people and makes them want to kill you, and lie to get away with it...surrounded by money, surrounded by killers in a world thats lost its way....
But more than just the effects of inflammation on the physical body...I was also obsessed with understanding how that affected, effected both my emotional stae, my energy/mood level interconnected....My "friend" was too busy hating me and she would argue probably that I was too self obsessed to notice...actually she would just agree in order to stick me with her witcy smile...a smile I used to see as just a laugh...but now it all makes sense...this same woman I BEGGED to be a partner in a yoga pilates type studio after the first time I saw such a place open up in Woodstock. I'd seen it start to happen in manhattan, and by "it" I mean phenominal effect on friends I saw daily's physical body...anyway....Im almost forcing myself to bother typing rihgt now...all so pointless when met with so much chronic hatred....fuk you Tracy...and all mother's who freak out while feeding their babies slop, to pigheaded to see the simplifying bigger picture....because that would mean letting go of the years of hate as a habit, towards me....now I sound like an asshole only because...its all I have...cant help it....

Desmond Tutu, peace activists call for NBC to ax 'Stars Earn Stripes'

Archbishop Desmond Tutu and the other Nobel laureates protested Monday in an open letter that the show glorifies war and armed violence.  A letter was sent to NBC boss Robert Greenblatt and others connected with the show Stars Earn Stripes. It declares “preparing for war is neither amusing nor entertaining.” It calls for NBC to stop airing the series. NBC is defending its new series “Stars Earn Stripes” after nine Nobel Peace Prize winners complained the show treats military maneuvers like athletic events. NBC says the show isn’t “a glorification of war, but a glorification of service.”   The series premiered Monday night. It pairs celebrity participants with U.S. military personnel for simulated military challenges.

People Giving up Pets Claiming They Can't Afford Pet food?

Bullshit! So you wash of the salt from a can of garbanzo beans the best you can, balance it out with fresh produce like carrot...my dog will even eat a raw sweet potatoe...because he's well taken care of, loved is the word, more than probably most vets in the county....its common sense a little research so you dont give them anything toxic to their systems (not so sure I believe half the crap I read anyway)...My pup is over 10 years old now...and so there is no excuse...Anyone who would give their older pet, in fact blindly euthanizing them probably is so full of shit-it needs to be said. Saw some news story about "hard times" affecting the shelters more and more with abandoned dogs owners can no longer afford to feed...thats a load of crap. There is always something...$2.14 for 1lb of gGreek yogurt in shop n stop would feed them for 3 days...spaghetti? Why not! Its better than breaking their hearts and pretending they have more than a 50/50 chance of someone else adopting them at that point in their lives. Probably better than most of the commercial dogfood we prtend isn't slowly killing them and making vets rich.......people are so stupid sometimes...too lazy...dont really love their animals...dont even love the,selves...

Lunch with Mom

I need to write a love letter to the Chef at Table 9. My mom took me out to a late sunday lunch and I had the most delicious salad I cant stop thinking about. If only I could afford to eat this way everyday.......although the arugula was left out and it was only a bed of spinach, I got the "Arugula, Spinach, Beets, Goats Cheese Vinaigrette..and I asked for walnuts on top....It was so delicious (a week ago now) I havent stopped thinking about it. It was ENORMOUS and yet it only cost $7.99. I thought I needed some protein so got a cheesburger with fries...not bad at all, a great display with the cute little french fries in a mini fyer basket....Wish I took a pic of the salad...It was piled up like 10 inches high and had this sculpture of julianed beets stacked up on top...it was a work of art...If I could afford to eat that for lunch and dinner 2-3 times a day for 2 weeks I would loose so much weight easily....probably feel so much better....but money determines these things more than anyone likes ot admit...its not about will power when death is knocking...


Monday, August 13, 2012

If Everyone Lives The Western Model Lifestyle the Planet Will Be Doomed

Republicans refuse to admit that Solyndra was so much more than a less than perfect business investment. That it's vitally important solutions to coming energy crisis be found. This was why they tried to stop people from seeing the movie Batman by scaring them with a shooting, because it was using Romney's name as the evil that didnt care about the patience needed...while we pretend it's ok horny Nigerians and Central Americans pretend to give a shit about their abundant offspirng (sorry but Im temporarily living next door to Idi Amin Jr who (to my surprise) is an employee of the US miloitary...what a disgusting piece of shit human being...so sorry he happens to be black...not my problem. Not my fault. Correction it has been MADE my problem by carelessly gun slinging military pieces of shit of all colors.

Most Americans don't have any idea that we still burn coal, they think it went out with top hats and corsettes. Because they don't see it. They don't think about what really goes on behind the light switch. I just learned from a great Frontline episode called HEAT, that it tales a pound of coal to power a TV for 4.5 hours, another pound to power a bedside light for 2 evenings. The average American household uses 9.5 tons of coal every year. 52% of all electricity consumed by Americans comes from coal. Its referred to as base load power, always available, unlike solar or wind.
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Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Green Planet Statement

Im guessing it was a design meant to psychologically transcend matching any one country's uniform...I first thought it was just an extra psychological touch by Lauren...but it's Nike I guess right? Looks like the fastest runners, whatever country, choosing a MtDew, astronaut piss color sneaker that even the gymnasts and swimmers wear...because? They're that great? That light? That supportive? Cant wait to try a pair on. After I find money for other thing sI found myself needing today. Like the ability to buy myself an onion, dish soap, do my laundry...Imagine? This is my joke...am I allowe to copyright (2012) some other photog's photo with my extra touch? Copyright 2012

Killing to ReDirect Cashflow

When you contemplate how many people act like theyre capable of murder, for the lowliest reasons...you realize why people are so defensive, so easily exorcised...so many that when they create these hunger games like news stories, canned life of criminal entertainment...CO AZ CO....seems like code...like a riddle? People are so full of shit they dont even realize not only is it ok to admit what anger is brewing inside, it's necessary....because when millions start doing it simultaneously, a who entire other world will be taking place....transitioning? natural? maybe. Now I want FUCK YOU engraved on my tombstone. I think.

Or forget about murder. The millions of little things people go to great lengths to make disappear...What would you do if you heard through a small town village grapevine that your middle school aged kids all had a (popular) substitute teacher who was an old high school flames of your husband?  I guarantee if not directly coming up with some way to sabotage, or destroy the reminder's career with your tax money, at least one derogatory word through the channels to be a part of a holy reem....this actually happened to me...but there were kids from so many diffenrent parents who hated me, it could have been anyone who eventually had me sacked.... "CYOA" warned Mrs What's her name...I guess she meant well...but what kind of people partakes in such a system in the name of children no less...where ppl have to build on a foundation of lies.....?

Poverty is a direct result of careless, senseless stupidity...poeple who think they want wealth but dont know what theuyre doing and spend their fortunes on fortresses to protect that lie....its a requitement...and theyre damn good at it...so good only they would ever know if they decided to surrender...as god expects it to be....natural? All natural?

Joe and the Japanese

I think I may have happened on a way to explain why making a fool of myself has been "worth it". Since people so love to connect their good deed to "helping" children...omg the cliche I detest most...

This kid Joe. Such a strange situation. His mom was nice as could be to me. Desperate to find someone to babysit for her monster. I want to believe this woman is as sweet and kind, as she may occasionally seem troubled...no judgements...this  I think is the story worth telling, and how my life matters more than everyone's sabotage has been so far....and how "the children suffer". Im only going to ingratiate because it's worth it as much as this child .... if I had to describe him in one sentence, if you could imagine a 10 year old kid the size of small man, drugged out of his mind because this was what "the system" was telling her to do...they threaten to withhold monies if direct orders are not followed etc...thereby empowering and enriching the one's who made poeple poor in the first place....they've successfully redefined the word "cheater" to mean a desperate, sexy blonde mother who's look bother them because they are so rejected emotionally, still as an adult they will play crucifixtion with innocent women with children...what was thay movie...Ray Fines...constant gardner...exactly the same principal...

Anyway so the original point of writing about Joe was to bear witnes to a social scientific observation of...this kid was OBSESSED with Japanese cartoons...although on drugs....he was still honest...maybe he imagined it I dont know...but he tried to explain a few times what was happening in his brain...and once described it as a kind of siren (I cant remember hos exact words) but I took it to mean , by the expression on his face, that he was saying "please make it stop". The subtext of this kids life...actually this single woman, living alone, breathing in the fumes of a copy shop.....if people are going to call it welfare they should simply realize a blind faith system would at leats be less evil than the created super power of bullshit education...black hearts lookig for a salary and a position they can tolerate....to be fair indivudals dont mean to end up the way the system turns its people into threatened robots...its so bad it polices itself...neighbors wasting each other's time with the pettiest of shit...THAT is what people like my neighbors and Jane Kartsch have redefined american...unconscious.

ANyway the kid was picking up on the power being generated thru the technology .... ie since i got this laptop, my period has just stopped....almost every time I talk to apple they remond me "it is not a laptop. DO NOT leave it on your lap!" But the stiff back wins out everytime...someone it ...for example right now it is on my knees 5 inches away from my crotch and breasts....these things kill...they've eatened away my eyesight prematurely...but I gave that up desperately trying to send a message in a bottle from remote catskill moutains! STill left up there to die and be abused by a bunch of bored..anyway...Joe.

I felt so bad to leave them...but when I think about Joe wrestling with the bus monitors and ripping the 2 way radio out of it's cord....I dont think Ive ever seen an adult fight like that...someone he was restrained by 3-4 people, while I talked him down....and he came inside the house with me...as if everything was ok....it was when he started to become cruel towards me, I found myself stooping to his level I realized it was time to get out...I'd burned out. His mom enjoyed a glass of wine I think once in a while, but was always with him ajust a couple hours after school....totally normal...I think I once had to have him stay at my apt overnight and I never took an eye off my cats. I swear he would have killed them in .... actually .....how unfair is that of me right? He didnt. and I think it was actually like a short fun camping trip feeling of everything was alright....so good for Joe....always wished him...omg I even let my camera run in a cartrip with him once when we were singing along with some Weird AL Yankovich song...laughing hysterically...I swear a truly unforgettable joyoud moment...this kid was so special...so smart and troubled at the same time, the drugs were ruining his little forming brain....I am ashamed to say I made sure to gibe him the pills at prescribed times as I was being paid to do....would I dare confess that once forgotten I felt like I had saved a few brain cells? Imagine how quickly someone might investigate a mistatement as some kind of crime against a child...."the system" is made up of black hearted people, so bored and misreable in their own lives....few even realize it's happening...

I dont remember cops being involved, but when I think back to the bus in front of his house incident...I cant believe the bus monitor he was punching out didnt call cops....fuzzy on memories there..but to mae my point I have to say Im sure the cops knew about Joe...ok I have to tie this point up-something to do with the way this guy I was seeing at the time, who knew about Joe, we had a funny psycho name for him (sorry Joe but it was intense for me-comic relief I guess-dont take it wrong way). We would laugh it off, ponder remedy...anyway when the guy dumped me in the most brutally cruel way, and I resorted to burning up his phone...he decided to call the local police and say I was harrassing him....but he claimed he didnt know my telephone number and only that I lived in that town (I gew up in Croton with this dick)...anyway....so the cops not only found me seemingly without even lifting a finger, through Joey, they left a message on his mom's answering machine! Luckily Joey's mom didnt even question me about it I thought...nothing much anyway other than some guy telling me "David Demarest has called us to say you are harrassing him by calling too many times" so please stop, but now I realize the degree to which we're watched when we live with very little cashflow....poverty has become a business and a passtime...Demarest, with his fucking TWO homes in Croton and Hamptons....BULLYING with as little effort as he takes to wipe the tip of his penis while he sits down to pee...he has the money, he's connected enough that he points the laser of the system on women and children withoiut money...this was 2000-2001 just before...and I will continue to point out to my dying day, that I sent him an email, still have it digitally...where I likened that kind of abuse as something that would soon end up with shutting down access to the upper dam and how anyone could wear those orange vests and set up shop to sabotage and destroy...because well educated gentle people have been reduced to wrestling over bacci scores....brb

I want to hear one day that Joe has a full life and many happy memories. "Nice being poor with ya for a while Joey! Now I understand the rage inside you, struggling with a natural calling to slaughter....". Poeple want to pretend slapping a label b4 sweeping under rug, everytime some idiot actually goes out and hurts innocent people...but the disservice the media gives....clueless about how to engage in discussion , real discussion with a need to understand....there are plenty of ways to do that without treating it like an empowering circus for the killer...Im excercing that VITAL NEED in a society that's so afraid, of its own shadow.....its all dying around us....see how youve killed me off Nancy? Neither of us realized entire south american countries would flood thru...or did you? When did you start counting your millions? As heads? Just like David yoru brother became a billionaire "head hunter"? Americans have fucked themselves. Time to start self deprecating a lot more....if it's not too late anyway...just see it for what it is....that in itself can generate miraculous resultat.

ps afterthought... I have to take a second here, to amaze myself ...I even have a copy of that police message on Rae's phone....and myself calling them back...every day...something crazy would happen to me...totally alice in wonderland....but when I look back...it seems methodical the way this increasingly, more and more a police state world we're creating creates its own problems....my new friend wendy...I dont know the whole story perhaps....but to watch a well paid lawyer and a siting local judge force her to have to keep taking $117 trains every 2 weeks as punishment, to stand before them and explain why she cant pay a $253 fine.....its insanity.....we control each other through our bank accounts....I want to at least expose the misplaced cruelty...the injustice....I heard about some documentary some kid made where he travels across country without anymoney...naive to the relziation that ist diffenrent when your young, and your ebeing prodcused by Craiglist and The Hangover producers....even if he doesnt have the cash in pocket, he isnt where hes trying to claim hes coming from....thats not how it works...just like Barbara Erenrich(sp?) Nickel and Dimed bullshit....its like AL Roker trying out figure skating for the first time for the TV audence to laugh....exactly that and little more....so misleading....thats why documenting 100s-1000s of hours of my life while going thru all of this crap dumped on me...is worthy of funding, support...instead I just get my own brother yelling in the streets "Ill call the cops!" Seriously? Poeple are not just afraid of the truth they are mortified by it....Im demonized, people think they know me when we've never met because word gets artificially sent around by the ones with the most to be ashamed of depserately trying to to discredit me.....brb

Monday, August 6, 2012

Death Looming

When I think about all the people in my life who have wished me dead my head spins. The reality is it will come, and at this point all my energy should probably just be focused on preventing it happening in a way that would haunt me with regret..regrets. Maybe Ive become too fascinated with the game I've played, the results of which too much to accept for one person...what did I do wrong? I've welcomed everyone's hatred, actually that is what Ive been fascinated by. That people who Ive shared good times with, or shared a word, or shared food, shared a momentary experience and maybe a smile or a curse word...I know I have never intentionally done anything to hurt anyone ever.  That knowledge is what makes me smug...a kind of righteousness with god. To walk a line, perhaps with the challenging mouth of a truck driver or Bronx prostitute...always just words...always chosen carefully, hoping the person might get it....but no one ever did....

A lovely life as we knew it has basically been sold out from under us. While many kept sbusy blaming Reagan and Nixon, Rockefeller, for the international invasion....the rapid destruction of a delicate eco system all for what? Ss Nancy Kennedy could send multiple children to college? 

I called Nancy Kennedy, on the verge of homelessness, sick with an ulcer from Jeanne Anzalone's house in 1990ish...they nursed me on fennel seeds to try to calm my stomach (hospitalized with violent vommitting and debilitating stomach pain that stopped me from breathing soon after....anyway, I telephoned Nancy after (accidentally) reading this horrible New York Times article about the future of our little village....because the article was about real estate and our future sprawl, the destruction of our bird santcuary to McMansions could be built....I'll never forget the way Nancy certainly knew what I was talking about, but she changed the subject to low income family housing (this is how "democrats" are exactly what we accuse republicans of being..." In retrospect I remember another speech by (lady she bought the agency from) about low income housing at the bottom of Mt Airy in 1993...it just shows how they were planning their own enron meets whitewater-meets whatever you wanna call greed....I just went googling "Nancy Kennedy P (first initial of lady's last name) and I happened upon this page about the Longueview castle...for sale...so obviously Nancy left some kind of footprint? Anyway it was certainly strange that the stroies we'd heard as children about Gloria Swanson's parties on Nordica Dr somehow seemed to be turned into a castle she was trying to sell in 2005? Asking 2-3 million....written without a name attached...dropping hollywood names and stories about speakeasies...I'd never heard this part....makes you wonder how many real estate agents have written and rewritten the important historical landmarks....why we're all so of course...no one has the nerve.  It sounds ridiculous to even wonder for a second if someone had poisoned me in 1990...the lies people tell so much deeper than the oceans.....good people get called "crazy" so that the evil ones can pretend to rule. "progress" as in entire countries now feeding on our delicately balanced/now out of balance natural resources...we need to build a new Tappan Zee because Nancy Kennedy, and 100s, millions just like her, lined their pockets with the profit from the greedy sprawl...the OVERPOPULATION problem doesnt need to be discussed as terroristic, unless youre censoring. No one dared point out that at least on some level, it is natural for a race to try to protect it's own kind...just because the arguments they try to make preposterous or worse, this doesnt negate the fact that the same behavior comes from ALL walks...is it not natural for a people to sense that their economy is being invaded? (at this point consider that accomplished). It is cheaper to send a "moneygram" internationally than domestic at Walmsrt by $2...it only costs $9 to send how much?  ANyone stupid enough to say I sound xenophobic while a $5 toll suddenly turns into $14 with some bullshit about communter discounts-as if the more tortured a commuter you are they will encourage more from tou  for ...its insanity!!! These peopel call me crazy because I can tell teh stories. I can expose their greediness...republican and democrat alike....there is no more party! The party is over...kaput...and no one knows what to replace it with...as if the founding fathers longviewed for a towel of babel. fuck you all. No I tale that back youre already fucked. How dare you. Thats what I want to say I guess...those can be my last words...I always sort of felt like we lived in the village of the fairies in Lord of the Rings....Imagine a little Jean Benet Ramsy in a chanel suit handing out paperwork to buyers...thats Nancy Kennedy....Thats why my life has been sucked dry financially because I would rather be dead than be Nancy Kennedy...I guess Ill get my wish

Its a good thing we didnt grow up to be more farmlike? Good thing Nancy your children will be ob=ver seeing Tracey's children building iPhones, for dollars a 12 hour day....because all that matters is money they would have you believe.

On behalf of a friend who is being put through the mill tomorrow I called a town court clerk to ask what could be done to help this woman who is such a victim of circumstance....I guess I'd always wished someone would have done that for me...naively....but thats what motivated me I suppose....Im going to write about that later....how this brilliant woman, with only one functioning arm no less, who works her ass off, who lives in this hellhole apt:
Got pulled over because when you drive the distances she has to to try to make a living one gets tired...I wasnt there but she swerved a bit and it was discovered her insurance hadnt been paid because of a PetCo pay card glitch she told me....long and short of it: she has had to spend money on expensive train ride 3-4 times from Buffalo area back to westchester...anyway...I dont know the details, I only know the system is so unfairly stacked against the vulnerable....the clerk tried to be kind, at least explained that when the fine came thru it could be paid in installments...anyway at the end of our conversation she comfortably said "It's important to remember that money isn't everything" and I replied "Only people who have money say that."

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Transmission Impossible

Eventually the internet will be so totally policed, so totally ruined, more and more run by deceptionists with software to sell at any cost, it will be a drag just like all the other work and slavery pass times we've come to behold as normal daily life...the Benjamin Franklin quote "Those who would give up freedom for a little security deserve neither" applies well....online used to feel like wild west...but more and more it feels like it has its own version of CDC, testing disease and virus on the public , so Bill Gates can go play Mother Teresa in Africa and sell Microsoft as if he's some great mind turned philanthropist...the deception is so chronic....people barely notice it...and in fact everyone becomes a little more themselves guilty...impossible to take a stand against it...everytime I find a free new way, someone else wants to put gates up, sell tickets, or shut it down....no fun anymore.

Aressted for Slander? Don't Laugh. Lots of Morons Fight to Make that the Reality

I thought of him as a peace loving crazy funny hippy in high school...but others thought of him as Most Likely to be turned into James Holmes....I was sort of a prom queen....and now the roles are reversed...thats is to say what Curt Cobain says may be true...but I try not to worry about it...But seriously, he's perhaps less that than I am the Holmes reference....and if James Holmes for whatever crazy reason might be found to be innocent I apologize....but assuming he did what the TV says he did...watch how it is done? See my perpetual SOS? Now? Then? Every fckn day? Look at how people treat me? This is a simple result of not having money and people should be ashamed of themselves....ALl I do is flow with thing sthe best I can powerlessly! Without ANY money most of the time! I cant afford to do my own laundry! I have to go to my mothers or to a friends! I have to decide between toilet paper or gas...to drive where? The last time I talked to social service for help, I called her a cunt, and after she hung up on me called back to hear her answer the phone "Hello Miss Cunt Speaking" everyone in the background laughing...actually it was pretty funny...I hav ethat on tape Sam...you dont see it all put together as an award winning documentary? Hanging with Branjolina? No? Oh thats right its easiet for you to see me NOT being able to stack wood for yoru delusional ass? I need help? Ya I do. And Ive been abused for asking fro my entire adult life. Even the snap shots are being held back from me (almost 20 minutes now stopped from being able to recieve my email) so IM blabbering on taher than just letting the pics speak for themslves...


Its like just because people can't admit when theyre wrong...EVen if I make them look good, even if I give them an alibi...they want to be the ones to...to...I dont know what it is...what I heard recently Einstein wrote, about an eternal waste of time it might be to try to change anyone's mind...cant remember exactly...but Im just amazed...that I could stand  in front of a dear childhood memory an dit would rather see me dead then admit the pettiest joke was an innocent mistake...but tehse poeple are not innocent...theyre killers as life maybe dictates itself to be...It was so clear to me that there is no hatred, zero, coming from me....and they want to kill me for shedding light...by simply thinking about it all a little longer...under a little brighter light...


Im so bored with this. Tired out. Roasted. To have to listen to people I barely know threaten me for....I cant even find the words! So Thank you Sam for giving me a few snapshots to describe it for me...I mean...how much more begging for mercy can I ve? Begging everyone I know to simply acknowledge that the only reason I have no money is because of the mass toilet theyve formed to flush against me...together...a bunch of poeple who simply need to be right at the expense of my life...I asked this guy, a childhood friend to hire me for $25 a day to do work that would likely cripple me...but its that fckn bad! There is no cash in my life and the family support is like another form of death...I simply need the recognition that I am worthy of being listened to...thats all...but when someone knows that extra $20 they might give me for even a great deal...the latest today $600 worth of rose bushes found in the grabage...people would rather see me dead than leave it alone...as it demonstrated by sam below...In his world he believes Im supposed to endure not only be disrespected but that I should be arrested if I DARE say one word back...even if those words are "got any work?"

When I looked at these snapshots of our texts thsi morning I realized, felt confirmed innocent...so thanks Sam...for the xample of what  bunch of piece of shits the "community" of westchester county is...

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Ive Been Taking a Knap

This is how it works...I piss off enough poeple and I could be framed for anything....no one questions anyway...but certainly not one will question the ruination fo someone theyd just assume see dead anyway...

How Often Do People Threaten to Arrest the Average Person?

I must submit...there is a mysterious hierarchy by which people follow unspoken decisions about who gets to rule....Imagine a world full of Off With Their Heads Women and Emperoros new clothes me? Thats my world...but I dont feel like Alice anymore. Im too old for this shit. Imagin being threatened with arrest for pushing the wrong button? Seriously? And for devoting my whole life to trying to confront it in order to stop it...they accuse me of going looking for it? No. Its simply what happens when peope realize their entire life has been a lie. That's insanity beyond James Holmes. I cant believe the story of the woman loosing a 6 yr old, then her unborn, now paralyzed ehrslef in the midst of the unspeakable hell....bt for asking the tediosu questions...people resent having their tennis game interrupted and will kill u for it...they like to eat James Holmes stpory for breakfast and secretly long fo rthe next "news" tragedy...ya that is what america has become..and the chinese I guess will show us just hw much via our combined stupidity...


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Albert Einstein Quotes - Sections


Albert Einstein Quotes - Science


"Imagination is more important than knowledge." - Albert Einstein
"If we knew what it was we were doing, it would not be called research, would it?" - Albert Einstein
"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science." - Albert Einstein
"People like us, who believe in physics, know that the distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion." - Albert Einstein
"The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once." - Albert Einstein
"Any intelligent fool can make things bigger and more complex... It takes a touch of genius --- and a lot of courage to move in the opposite direction." - Albert Einstein
"When forced to summarize the general theory of relativity in one sentence: Time and space and gravitation have no separate existence from matter." - Albert Einstein
"For every one billion particles of antimatter there were one billion and one particles of matter. And when the mutual annihilation was complete, one billionth remained - and that's our present universe." - Albert Einstein
"As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain; and as far as they are certain, they do not refer to reality." - Albert Einstein
"I don't believe in mathematics." - Albert Einstein
"Science is a wonderful thing if one does not have to earn one's living at it." - Albert Einstein
"The most incomprehensible thing about the world is that it is comprehensible." - Albert Einstein
"I maintain that the cosmic religious feeling is the strongest and noblest motive for scientific research." - Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein Quotes - Religon


"God does not play dice with the universe." - Albert Einstein
"Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind." - Albert Einstein
"I want to know God's thoughts...the rest are details." - Albert Einstein
"I cannot conceive of a personal God who would directly influence the actions of individuals, or would directly sit in judgment on creatures of his own creation. I cannot do this in spite of the fact that mechanistic causality has, to a certain extent, been placed in doubt by modern science. [He was speaking of Quantum Mechanics and the breaking down of determinism.] My religiosity consists in a humble admiration of the infinitely superior spirit that reveals itself in the little that we, with our weak and transitory understanding, can comprehend of reality. Morality is of the highest importance -- but for us, not for God." - Albert Einstein 'The Human Side', 1954
"Subtle is the Lord, but malicious He is not." - Albert Einstein
"Strange is our situation here upon this earth. Each of us comes for a short visit, not knowing why, yet sometimes seeming to a divine purpose." - Albert Einstein
"There remains something subtle, intangible and inexplicable. Veneration for this force beyond anything that we can comprehend is my religion." - Albert Einstein
"Human beings, vegetables, or cosmic dust, we all dance to a mysterious tune intoned in the distance by an invisible player." - Albert Einstein
"Do you believe in immortality? No, and one life is enough for me." - Albert Einstein
"Scientists were rated as great heretics by the church, but they were truly religious men because of their faith in the orderliness of the universe." - Albert Einstein
"I do not believe that the Good Lord plays dice." - Albert Einstein
"When the solution is simple, God is answering." - Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein Quotes - Humanity


"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity." - Albert Einstein
"I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones." - Albert Einstein
"Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile." - Albert Einstein
"The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing." - Albert Einstein
"Peace cannot be achieved through violence, it can only be attained through understanding." - Albert Einstein
"The value of a man resides in what he gives and not in what he is capable receiving." - Albert Einstein
"Try not to be a person of success, but rather a person of virtue." - Albert Einstein
"Try not to become a man of success but rather to become a man of value." - Albert Einstein
"So long as there are men there will be wars." - Albert Einstein
"Nationalism is an infantile disease, the measles of mankind." - Albert Einstein
"I believe in standardizing automobiles, not human beings." - Albert Einstein
"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character." - Albert Einstein
"The true value of a human being is determined primarily by the measure and the sense in which he has attained liberation from the self." - Albert Einstein
"It is not by sitting still at a grand distance and calling the human race larvae that men are to be helped." - Albert Einstein
"A man's ethical behavior should be based effectually on sympathy, education, and social ties; no religious basis is necessary. Man would indeed be in a poor way if he had to be restrained by fear of punishment and hope of reward after death." - Albert Einstein
"America is today the hope of all honorable men who respect the rights of their fellow men and who believe in the principle of freedom and justice." - Albert Einstein
"Perfection of means and confusion of ends seem to characterize our age." - Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein Quotes - Humorous


"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love." - Albert Einstein
"The hardest thing in the world to understand is the income tax." - Albert Einstein
"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former." - Albert Einstein
"Once you can accept the universe as matter expanding into nothing that is something, wearing stripes with plaid comes easy." - Albert Einstein
"The difference between stupidity and genius is that genius has its limits." - Albert Einstein
"The most aggravating thing about the younger generation is that I no longer belong to it." - Albert Einstein
When his wife asked him to change clothes to meet the German Ambassador: "they want to see me, here I am. If they want to see my clothes, open my closet and show them my suits." - Albert Einstein
"With fame, I become more and more stupid, which of course is a very common phenomenon." - Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein Quotes - Education


"Education is what remains after one has forgotten everything he learned in school." - Albert Einstein
"Teaching should be such that what is offered is perceived as a valuable gift and not as a hard duty." - Albert Einstein
"Example isn't another way to teach, it is the only way to teach." - Albert Einstein
"Wisdom is not a product of schooling but of the life-long attempt to acquire it." - Albert Einstein
"We know nothing at all. All our knowledge is but the knowledge of schoolchildren. The real nature of things we shall never know." - Albert Einstein
"You teach me baseball and I'll teach you relativity...No we must not You will learn about relativity faster than I learn baseball." - Albert Einstein
"Reading, after a certain age, diverts the mind too much from its creative pursuits. Any man who read too much and uses his own brain too little falls into lazy habits of thinking." - Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein Quotes - General


"Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler." - Albert Einstein
"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new." - Albert Einstein
"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one." - Albert Einstein
"Great spirits have always found violent opposition from mediocrities. The latter cannot understand it when a man does not thoughtlessly submit to hereditary prejudices but honestly and courageously uses his intelligence." - Albert Einstein
"The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift." - Albert Einstein
"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts." - Albert Einstein
"The secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources." - Albert Einstein
"People like you and I, though mortal of course like everyone else, do not grow old no matter how long we live...[We] never cease to stand like curious children before the great mystery into which we were born." - Albert Einstein in a letter to Otto Juliusburger;
"The monotony and solitude of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind." - Albert Einstein
"Everything that is really great and inspiring is created by the individual who can labor in freedom." - Albert Einstein
"We have to do the best we can. This is our sacred human responsibility." - Albert Einstein
"Where there is love there is no question." - Albert Einstein
"I think and think for months and years, ninety-nine times, the conclusion is false. The hundredth time I am right." - Albert Einstein
"The pioneers of a warless world are the youth who refuse military service." - Albert Einstein
"The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are permitted to remain children all our lives." - Albert Einstein
"Those instrumental goods which should serve to maintain the life and health of all human beings should be produced by the least possible labour of all." - Albert Einstein
"The search for truth is more precious than its possession." - Albert Einstein
"Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen." - Albert Einstein
"I have no special talents. I am only passionately curious." - Albert Einstein
"Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts." - Albert Einstein
"Isn't it strange that I who have written only unpopular books should be such a popular fellow?" - Albert Einstein
"He who joyfully marches in rank and file has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would suffice." - Albert Einstein
"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein
"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is to not stop questioning." - Albert Einstein
"I never think of the future. It comes soon enough." - Albert Einstein
"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed." - Albert Einstein
"I have deep faith that the principle of the universe will be beautiful and simple." - Albert Einstein
"Truth is what stands the test of experience." - Albert Einstein
"The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing." - Albert Einstein
"Quantum mechanics is very impressive. But an inner voice tells me that it is not yet the real thing. The theory yields a lot, but it hardly brings us any closer to the secret of the Old One. In any case I am convinced that He doesn't play dice." - Albert Einstein
"Great spirits have always found violent opposition from mediocre minds. The latter cannot understand it when a [person] does not thoughtlessly submit to hereditary prejudices but honestly and courageously uses their intelligence." - Albert Einstein
"How strange is the lot of us mortals! Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose we know not, though sometimes sense it. But we know from daily life that we exist for other people first of all for whose smiles and well-being our own happiness depends." - Albert Einstein
"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving." - Albert Einstein
"To get to know a country, you must have direct contact with the earth. It's futile to gaze at the world through a car window." - Albert Einstein
"I love to travel, But hate to arrive." - Albert Einstein
"Politics is more difficult than physics." - Albert Einstein
"I hate crowds and making speeches. I hate facing cameras and having to answer to a crossfire of questions. Why popular fancy should seize upon me, a scientist, dealing in abstract things and happy if left alone, is a manifestation of mass psychology that is beyond me." - Albert Einstein
"I am neither especially clever nor especially gifted. I am only very, very curious." - Albert Einstein
"Lasting harmony with a woman (was) an undertaking in which I twice failed rather disgracefully." - Albert Einstein
"A finely tempered nature longs to escape from the personal life into the world of objective perception and thought." - Albert Einstein
"If A equals success, then the formula is: A = X + Y + Z, X is work. Y is play. Z is keep your mouth shut." - Albert Einstein
"The ideals that have lighted my way and time after time have give me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Kindness, Beauty and Truth." - Albert Einstein
"A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?" - Albert Einstein
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"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new." - Albert Einstein
"Do not worry about your problems with mathematics, I assure you mine are far greater." - Albert Einstein
"If you are out to describe the truth, leave elegance to the tailor." - Albert Einstein
"Intellectuals solve problems; geniuses prevent them." - Albert Einstein
"It gives me great pleasure indeed to see the stubbornness of an incorrigible nonconformist warmly acclaimed." - Albert Einstein
"Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. THAT'S relativity." - Albert Einstein
"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one." - Albert Einstein
"Setting an example is not the main means of influencing others; it is the only means." - Albert Einstein
"The significant problems we face can not be solved at the same level of thinking we were at when we created them." - Albert Einstein
"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world." - Albert Einstein
"Joy in looking and comprehending is nature's most beautiful gift." - Albert Einstein
"It is high time that the ideal of success should be replaced by the ideal of service." - Albert Einstein
"There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." - Albert Einstein
"As punishment for my contempt for authority, Fate has made me an authority myself." - Albert Einstein
"I want to know how God created this world. I am not interested in this or that phenomenon, in the spectrum of this or that element. I want to know His thoughts; the rest are details." - Albert Einstein
"A human being is part of the whole called by us universe , a part limited in time and space. We experience ourselves, our thoughts and feelings as something separate from the rest. A kind of optical delusion of consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from the prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty...We shall require a substantially new manner of thinking if mankind is to survive." - Albert Einstein
"We have to do the best we can. This is our sacred human responsibility." - Albert Einstein
"We are in the position of a little child entering a huge library filled with books in many different languages. The child knows someone must have written those books . It does not know how. It does not understand the languages in which they are written. The child dimly suspects a mysterious order in the arrangement of the books but doesn't know what it is. That, it seems to me, is the attitude of even the most intelligent human being toward God. We see a universe marvelously arranges and obeying certain laws, but only dimly understand these laws. Our limited minds cannot grasp the mysterious force that moves the constellations." - Albert Einstein
"The value of a man resides in what he gives and not in what he is capable of receiving." - Albert Einstein
"When you sit with a nice girl for two hours, you think it's only a minute. But when you sit on a hot stove for a minute, you think it's two hours. That's relativity." - Albert Einstein
"The problems that exist in the world today cannot be solved by the level of thinking that created them." - Albert Einstein
"I admit that thoughts influence the body." - Albert Einstein
"Problems cannot be solved at the same level of awareness that created them." - Albert Einstein
"On the big Bang theory: "For every one billion particles of antimatter there were one billion and one particles of matter. And when the mutual annihilation was complete, one billionth remained - and that's our present universe." - Albert Einstein
"MacMillan has this particular quote simply as "God doesn't play dice." and notes that it is often quoted as doesn't play dice with the universe". - Albert Einstein
"He who finds though that lets us penetrate even a little deeper into the eternal mystery of nature has been granted great grace. He who, in addition, experiences the recognition, sympathy, and help of the best minds of his times, had been given almost more happiness than one man can bear." - Albert Einstein
"Everything that is really great and inspiring is created by the individual who can labor in freedom." - Albert Einstein
"A photograph never grows old. You and I change, people change all through the months and years but a photograph always remains the same. How nice to look at a photograph of mother or father taken many years ago. You see them as you remember them. But as people live on, they change completely. That is why I think a photograph can be kind." - Albert Einstein
"The tragedy of life is what dies inside a man while he lives." - Albert Einstein
"The gift of fantasy has meant more to me than my talent or absorbing positive knowledge." - Albert Einstein
"I am content in my later years. I have kept my good humor and take neither myself nor the next person seriously." - Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein Quotes - Last Words


When Einstein died on April 18, 1955 he left a piece of writing ending in an unfinished sentence.
These were his last words:
In essence, the conflict that exists today is no more than an old-style struggle for power, once again presented to mankind in semi religious trappings. The difference is that, this time, the development of atomic power has imbued the struggle with a ghostly character; for both parties know and admit that, should the quarrel deteriorate into actual war, mankind is doomed. Despite this knowledge, statesmen in responsible positions on both sides continue to employ the well-known technique of seeking to intimidate and demoralize the opponent by marshaling superior military strength. They do so even though such a policy entails the risk of war and doom. Not one statesman in a position of responsibility has dared to pursue the only course that holds out any promise of peace, the course of supranational security, since for a statesman to follow such a course would be tantamount to political suicide. Political passions, once they have been fanned into flame, exact their victims ... Citater fra...

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These are a few of our favorite Albert Einstein quotes. If you know of other famous Albert Einstein quotes, and would like to see them included here, please email me the exact Albert Einstein quote at info@alberteinsteinsite.com and I'll try to find a place for it. Thanks, and enjoy all the Albert Einstein quotes on this page and any where else in the world that you find them!
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Aressted for Slander? Don't Laugh. Lots of Morons Fight to Make that the Reality. OK Now We're Getting Somewhere

I thought of him as a peace loving crazy funny hippy in high school...but others thought of him as Most Likely to be turned into James Holmes....I was sort of a prom queen....and now the roles are reversed...thats is to say what Curt Cobain says may be true...but I try not to worry about it...But seriously, he's perhaps less that than I am the Holmes reference....and if James Holmes for whatever crazy reason might be found to be innocent I apologize....but assuming he did what the TV says he did...watch how it is done? See my perpetual SOS? Now? Then? Every fckn day? Look at how people treat me? This is a simple result of not having money and people should be ashamed of themselves....ALl I do is flow with thing sthe best I can powerlessly! Without ANY money most of the time! I cant afford to do my own laundry! I have to go to my mothers or to a friends! I have to decide between toilet paper or gas...to drive where? The last time I talked to social service for help, I called her a cunt, and after she hung up on me called back to hear her answer the phone "Hello Miss Cunt Speaking" everyone in the background laughing...actually it was pretty funny...I hav ethat on tape Sam...you dont see it all put together as an award winning documentary? Hanging with Branjolina? No? Oh thats right its easiet for you to see me NOT being able to stack wood for yoru delusional ass? I need help? Ya I do. And Ive been abused for asking fro my entire adult life. Even the snap shots are being held back from me (almost 20 minutes now stopped from being able to recieve my email) so IM blabbering on taher than just letting the pics speak for themslves...


Its like just because people can't admit when theyre wrong...EVen if I make them look good, even if I give them an alibi...they want to be the ones to...to...I dont know what it is...what I heard recently Einstein wrote, about an eternal waste of time it might be to try to change anyone's mind...cant remember exactly...but Im just amazed...that I could stand  in front of a dear childhood memory an dit would rather see me dead then admit the pettiest joke was an innocent mistake...but tehse poeple are not innocent...theyre killers as life maybe dictates itself to be...It was so clear to me that there is no hatred, zero, coming from me....and they want to kill me for shedding light...by simply thinking about it all a little longer...under a little brighter light...


Im so bored with this. Tired out. Roasted. To have to listen to people I barely know threaten me for....I cant even find the words! So Thank you Sam for giving me a few snapshots to describe it for me...I mean...how much more begging for mercy can I ve? Begging everyone I know to simply acknowledge that the only reason I have no money is because of the mass toilet theyve formed to flush against me...together...a bunch of poeple who simply need to be right at the expense of my life...I asked this guy, a childhood friend to hire me for $25 a day to do work that would likely cripple me...but its that fckn bad! There is no cash in my life and the family support is like another form of death...I simply need the recognition that I am worthy of being listened to...thats all...but when someone knows that extra $20 they might give me for even a great deal...the latest today $600 worth of rose bushes found in the grabage...people would rather see me dead than leave it alone...as it demonstrated by sam below...In his world he believes Im supposed to endure not only be disrespected but that I should be arrested if I DARE say one word back...even if those words are "got any work?"

When I looked at these snapshots of our texts thsi morning I realized, felt confirmed innocent...so thanks Sam...for the xample of what  bunch of piece of shits the "community" of westchester county is...

On Earth Plant Care Specialists

Oh my goodness! What wonderful work they do! Panises on pansies.

Son of Sam Takes a Napp

Imagine being 50 years old and being so broke you have to ask the class fuck up for work just to keep your phone from being shut off...and even tho your fat broke back fat ass struggles to keep up, you realize the still insecure all these years later piece of shit kinda gets off on seeing you vulnerable, and in need...its like that makes him feel more successful somehow....a guy who makes money turning Ecuadorans into slaves and walks around calling them short so he feels taller than her really is...more later. This is the place in which most poeple decide to take their own life...how much worse could it possibly get? He refuses to give you anymore work because of the gossip that made you poor in the first place. More later. Stay tuned. What frequency you riding on today Sammy?

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Masters of Prpoaganda

If Ai Weiwei was, (or (benefit of the doubt) were to find himself) in Steve Job's position they would have given him pancreatic cancer too. The sophistication behind today's "news" writing, hired theatre performers...is so over the average person's head, over most people's head that is... I mean they say they have like 35 security caeras on him at all times, he's beaten, jailed....if the chinese want someone gone nothing is easier so It makes me wonder if this isnt an extremely sophisticated mind controlling tool...keeping it so close to the line of eing real...maybe this amazing man is just a masochist? maybe a trained masochist....its so easy to kill nowadays...when I htink of all the doctors who probably give patienst (with insurance of course) a cancer, or a surgery that will keep them coming back for more....its not far fetched...Ive been saying it for years....Ive predicted all kinds of shit for years...no credit...denial....such a shame.

Celebrity today is nothing more than talent (and sometimes not even that) playing a role within an army of entertainment lawyers, agents, promotional, marketing people who, short of murder (or at least I used to think short of murder)...and being kept so busy with self importance they arent able to even get a reality check...rendering them useless politically (other than the scripted "issues" theyre allowed to spar over....

People have been taught to be afraid of each other. Who calls the police on their neighbor over loud music without talking to the neighbors first? Those people should be shipped back on a slow boat to china...oh I know its coming....when everyone is on the internet it's like rush hour, throggs neck bridge style traffic...u only imagine youre moving...

I cant get the idea out of my head that James Holmes pissed off the wrong person and they set him up with way. Over the past 20 years Ive met dozens of people capable of exactly that kind of revenge....the only good thing (good?) about little cash flow is that it forces  youre eyes to see....

I overheard a neighbor from Hawaii yesterday, a neighbor that I basically liked (did I write about this already?) putting the idea in gangsta neighbor's gf's head that Im the one "talking"... Does he want to see me shot by some pig moron who thinks he has a right to blame me for his pathetically violent life? Imagine that? The irony...world full of shit people run by shit poeple....I would love to know what he has with some sweet as she is delusional squatting fat girl with a tiny babby...did I just answer that? Ya maybe he loves kids. Most men do right...imagine if he's just wondering if she might fool around..."looking for that lover who wont blow my cover...so hard to find" etc....thats the shit good poeple die over? are killed over? and who wants to talk about the shit they keep poeple preoccupied with distracted by....wtf man....someone get me the fcuk out of here? Please?

Colorado Medicine

by Sara Burnett

A typical day at Foresight Family Practice in Grand Junction used to start and end with Gregory Reicks, DO, up to his eyeballs in patient charts–some with lab results a week or more old and the paperwork often a less-than-complete record of the patient’s medical care.
But since the launch of the Quality Health Network (QHN), a nationally recognized regional health information network conceived by local physicians, a typical day is much different.
The paper charts are all but extinct. Instead, Reicks logs on to QHN just as he would log on to his e-mail. In his inbox he finds the results of tests he has ordered, most as recently as the previous day. He also finds notes from physicians from other practices or one of the city’s two hospitals who have seen his patients. Some visits Reicks may have been aware of, some not.
If a patient’s cholesterol is too high, Reicks can send the report to his medical assistant and ask her to contact the patient to discuss it, all with the click of a mouse. Another click and he can see every test that patient has had in the past three years.
“It’s quite a system,” says Reicks.
A collaboration between the Mesa County Independent Physicians Association (IPA), Rocky Mountain Health Plans (RMHP), and St. Mary’s and Community hospitals, QHN went live in 2005.
Since then, area physicians–more than 90 percent of whom are connected to the network–aren’t the only ones who have taken notice.
Earlier this spring, an adviser to the U.S. Senate Finance Committee helda teleconference with QHN leaders to learn more about the network.
Colorado’s Center for Improving Value in Health Care, or CIVHC, is also looking to QHN as an example of how to cut costs while improving quality of care. And Michael Pramenko, MD, former president of the Mesa County Medical Society and current co-chair of the CMS Physicians’ Congress Matrix Reform Plan Work Group, says he is pursing QHN as the template for CMS to use in its health care reform model.
“It’s a great model for how to at least get cranking with electronic connectivity,” says Pramenko. “And I think a lot of people around the country agree.”
How they did itThose involved with QHN say it was a long-standing spirit of collaboration that got the network off the ground.
That collaboration occurred, in part, because just about every doctor in town is a member of the Mesa County IPA, the provider network for RMHP, says Reicks. Others say it’s a natural outgrowth of being in a rural area. Separated from metro Denver by the Rocky Mountains, physicians here have always had to depend more on one another.
QHN Executive Director and CEO Dick Thompson credits the physicians and their willingness to investigate new ways to improve patient care and efficiency. “There are great physician leaders in Grand Junction,” says Thompson, “and they’re not afraid to try something new.”
Reicks says the conversation that sparked QHN started about 15 years ago. Mesa County IPA physicians started talking about how nice it would be to have one place for information about patients who see specialists or other primary care providers. It was around the advent of the Internet, so the possibility was there. But it still was too early, and Reicks says none of the early attempts really took off.
About three years ago, they decided to try again. The Internet had matured, as had the health information market. Funding was secured through Mesa County IPA and RMHP, and a beta site was selected.


From there, the network took off. Today it serves western Colorado and eastern Utah. As of February, there were 1,569 licensed users from 84 different organizations, including home health care, hospice, mental health providers and the public health department. In just the first two months of 2009, there were more than three million requests of the server.
How it worksQHN is a Web-based network, so once a physician has an authorized user account and password, he or she needs only an Internet connection to access it. The system is replicated, with a set of servers in California as well as Grand Junction, in case one set goes down.
Twenty-three sources of data feed into the network. The information includes laboratory results, emergency room notes, medications, discharge summaries, progress notes, radiology and surgical notes.
“We’re Federal Express on steroids,” says Thompson. “Nearly anything clinical that might be part of a medical record, we’re directing that data, pursuant to physician order, where it needs to go.”
Thompson says that roughly the first eight months of QHN’s existence, before the network went live, were spent working on privacy issues.
Any person requesting access to the network must file an application, which is processed and validated by QHN. Users are assigned a use level, with physicians having the most access, as well as a username and password. QHN monitors every keystroke. Just like FedEx, they can track everything, from who looked at a record to who moved one.
QHN has a board of directors and several subcommittees made up of leaders from all areas of the health care community. About half of its funding comes from the two hospitals. RMHP and Mesa County IPA each cover another quarter of the cost.
ResultsRMHP President Steve ErkenBrack says the investment is well worth it because it results in a better health care system.
The hospitals save money by not having to send lab results to dozens of different doctor’s offices. And when a patient comes into the emergency room, physicians can now see a full medical record, not just the care the patient previously received at that hospital.
More robust information also means fewer medication errors or duplication of tests for patients seen by different physicians or different facilities.
Proponents say the result is higher quality and more efficient care. In May 2006, a study by the Dartmouth Medical School and the Robert Woods Johnson Foundation (the Dartmouth Atlas) found Mesa County had the most costeffective delivery of Medicare services in the nation.
QHN’s next phase includes establishing more compatibility with physicians’ electronic medical records systems, so information may more easily flow in and out of the QHN repository. It also continues to work with health care communities on the Western Slope and eastern Utah to create “neighborhoods” of health information that may then be connected to the larger network.
In time, the hope is that the model will be replicated in some fashion across the state and the country. Thompson says it’s a thought process whose time has come.

Friday, July 27, 2012

How We Make Each Other Poor

That's what Im trying to write about. The little bit of love I have left inside figures if I write the shit- things about everyone Ive ever met no one has to feel alone....a pattern might be detected...and my purpose will be fulfilled...thats sort of how it feels...at this moment anyway...none of it in the least bit malicious....I want to write about what happened to me because Im proud of myself I realize. Brave as I was stupid, stupid as I ever was brave...it doesnt matter...just the feeling thats this is what its all about in the end...I guess if I take a jab at a cousin, toying with them in a way...because of the tiny hope inside that wishes they would have just called and said "What the fuck is up with you..." I mean not even that small effort...Ive been reduced to begging and they all love it...even though they hate to hear from me because they'll always expect Ill ask for help whether monetarily or even just an emotional 5 minutes to not feel alone....people have treated me extremely well at times...I always wished more than anything to pay all that back...but the majority of people...the beatings! The rapoes! The stupid pointless hate, the erroneous judgment...the waste of my beautiful life's time...but on top of the treatment Im more and more ostracized...irreparably at this point I know...its the way the sam epoeple, new poeple, prefer to compound my problems, my vulnerabilities so as to seem like a nut if it becomes convenient one day for them to really do me in....

I sat before the smug little Turkish asshole, despising what he saw as the joke of an american woman at the end of her rope financially...he got off on it....snotty little...doubt he's much more than 18 19 yrs old...the sickening look he had in his eyes for me....and I hear yesterday his $57 million life being scrutinized...who has that much money and gets off on watching a woman plead with them to give an owed $13? SERIOUSLY!!! How much more clear can I fucking get? I ask millionaire+? cousins all over for a lousy hundred, maybe 200 once in a while to surviv..gas in car moments...and they ignore me! No! Not only ignore me talk amongst theselves that its better this way...closer to dead woman dont talk....internet wasnt configured in ...since 93 this has been going on....When I was arrested for not having a subway token, and the living shit beat out of me. My NC family acted completely humiliated for me...no one wanted to speak to me...elder aunties telling me im "not right with god" I still dont know what the fuck that means....I know! Someone do a side by side comparison of my life to Mary K's...what will you find? A murder? Compare my life to James Holmes what will you see? A desperate guy with an asshole father who insisted working at mcdonalds was noble medical degree or not....nothing makes any sense etc...and you will find a troubled guy who was targeted by the new wave in movie promotion....evil beypond even the comic books evil...because its real. STupid fucking people wake the fuck up and pray for better prioritization skills.