How Westchester Yoga Commemorated One Week After Newtown

I used to drive every single day to Bikram Yoga Danbury to practice...never had any problem with them whatsoever...from Joy to Alina (6 years) until Jane saw to it to change that...and now after pointing out to Alina that she'd spelled Newtown wrong in a mention on BYD's facebook page..IM sure I'll be forbidden from practicing there ever again too...

I go on about MY experience and how it relates to what happened in Newtown because it exemplifies so well this hypocritical unconsciousness....this misdirected hateful energy I see as part of the big picture...although I did say something sarcastic about all of Jane's typo's too, and even accused her of plugging her business in a short comment I was surprised that Alina blocked me from the site altogether ... The only think Id commented on Alina's (incredibly LAME) post, which I believe was dated same day of shooting...was to point out it's not "Newton" a she'd typed but NewtoWn. I expected her to remove my comment but AFTER she fixed her typo...but no she left it...as if to say "who cares" and this is typical in so many europeans I know who have suffered as much, more tragedy as this....but beyond this catty speculating...just wanted to say that befor eand after the shared moment of silences...I spent ENTIRE day looking at hours of initial news reports, analyzing name of producers mentioned who confirmed this bad info for example...he moments when the first erroneous names mentioned etc...because if everyone QUESTIONED and found real answers....people would realize thsi is the only way to honor the victims....by getting the story RIGHT.

I also made this video, wrote the song, played both the guitar tracks, wrote the lyrics, recorded it on a 4 track...trying to turn my wailing into something that would not allow, keep Jane from angling for reasons to keep creating Stasi files:

Merry Making

So of course my family leaves me out of the christmas holiday gathering as usual.....without explanation. Just the culmination of years of financial tension, general family bitterness, pigheadedness and misinforation... I asked my mom to retrieve a painting a gave to them back in '05, that if theyre not using it I wanted it back to protect it from my brother's temper....she told me "its theirs to burn if they so choose." Ive spent my entire life being called crazy by truly crazy people. But make the best of it so they say right?

Below my crap shit apartment, through the think walls of which you can hear a person scratch their ass, I have my not so bad scottish latin tempered neighbor, who fo rthe past couple fo years has let me know my walking around drives him crazy...he's been polite as he can be, while still being honest...but there is no solution. Other than me absorbing so much tension from tiptoeing for the past 2 yrs...but anyway I was thinking how much like "domestic abuse" this is in essence...first let me say the 4 people who are down their now sleeping...have been perfectly polite, seem very nice, very friendly today...in passing anyway...but the thing is between the 4 of them they probably have between $1.5-3 million in real estate...the gf has a ranch somewhere in ct for example which is probably worth 2million alone...the point is while Im just tryin gto go about my business, at thi spoint cleaning, needing to vacuum then finding myself hesitating,...because even though its only 10pm it sounds/feels like theyre all in bed...so I start tip toeing mor ethan usual...start to loose my focus next thing I know Im rotting on the couch again...the stress Ive absorbed from feeling a sense of fear - from having yet another neighbor go over completely to the dark side (where they dont just disagree but actually fabricate problems to try to see me squirm-as in ya they get off on it...ya its hellish)..

   I even put quiet xmas music on....was afraid to sing along....in my experience....neighbors are too lazy to call themselves, or text...they'll just use police like their butlers relaying a message...just imagining that happening to me as it has too often....over pettiest or even fabricated bs scenes...couldt believe it when I saw Daniel James working at Starbucks. I will never go in there again. I told the Starbucks headquarters they should take over old Black Cow space...anway...move on you say? They dont want to be on a lovely horse farm in CT for xmas they want to send their stress thru my floor....and add to the slow death....IM too tired to expound on this right now...but we are a society that enjoys the torture of the vulnerable...and I mean to say something profound about it. brb (also con ed and bullyinging custoemr service over accustaions of overbilling...these poeple are killers plain and simple more on that later)

 

3 Blind Mice. I Believe Newtown Massacre Quite Possibly an Act of War (Retaliation) and Lanza Family Could Have Been Set Up...more on that later

   Which is more unbelievable? That a boy could get his hands on a gun and kill kids at a school, or that men who think like Gillberto Valle are paid very good money to protect who? NYPD Commissioner Kelly was saying a few days ago that one answer to the slaughter at the Newtown School is to have cops troll social media...I wanted to raise my hand and ask him "Would officers like Gilberto Valle be invited to hold such a position? Even if the following is some horrible smear campaign against some guy who pissed off the wrong person? Just the fact that these words have been spoken....who thinks like this? People with the authority to judge who crazy? Livor Scandal connections are seeming less and less suspicious...brb

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A CRIMINAL COMPLAINT: THE 'CANNIBAL COP'S PLANS'

A criminal complaint outlines alleged online communication between Gilberto Valle and co-conspirators (CC1 and CC2), which are excerpted below:

CC1: How big is your oven?
Valle: Big enough to fit one of these girls if I folded their legs. The abduction will have to be flawless... I know all of them... I can just show up at her home unannounced, it will not alert her, and I can knock her out, wait until dark and kidnap her right out of her home.
CC1: You really would be better to grab a stranger. The first thing the police force will do is check out a friend.
Valle: Her family is out of state.
CC1: I have anaesthetic gasses.
Valle: I can make chloroform here.
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CC1: It's really had to dislocate a jaw. Also, how would we put her over the fire, spitting kills the girl. Have to put her into a kind of cage. What is your favorite cut of meat?
Valle: I was thinking of tying her body onto some kind of apparatus... cook her over a low heat, keep her alive as long as possible.
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Valle: I love that she is asleep right now not having the slightest clue of what we have planned. Her days are numbered. I'm glad you're on board. She does look tasty doesn't she?
CC1: You do know if we don't waste any of her there is nearly 75 lbs of food there.
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Valle: It is going to be so hard to restrain myself when I knock her out, but I am aspiring to be a professional kidnapper and that's business. But I will really get off knocking her out, tying up her hands and bare feet and gagging her. Then she will be stuffed into a large piece of luggage and wheeled out to my van.
CC2: Just make sure she doesn't die before I get her.
Valle: No need to worry. She will be alive. It's a short drive to you. I think I would rather not get involved in the rape. You paid for her. She is all yours and I don't want to be tempted the next time I abduct a girl.

Jane Kartsch, the Origins of Emotional Torture and Officer Doerr

I've always avoided getting into discussing the way Jane had her first police report RE-WRITTEN (I so totally shit you not) nine months later as it's tedious and confusing enough with just the first one...but today I conversed with the roommate from TT almost got her to admit that she lied....I mean I know at this point it's all over...Im dead....but I want this info to live on...and if it takes 20 yrs to reveal her for what sh eis...so be it....the truth is worth waiting for....

Nine months after the first set of made up facts Jane had Officer Doerr badge 52 of the YPD write up a SECOND FELONIOUS DOCUMENT! ALl lies...and he all but says so himself between his twisted need to try to make things sound as bad as he possibly can...why? Thin blue line for the wise guy stuff? I dunno... ALl I do know is that when Hope Wurdach of Bikram Yoga Franchise offices questioned Jane on the nonsensical silliness of first maliciously false and libelous report  Jane tried to tell her that I (she) "must have altered it." Luckily Dan forwarded me the email from Hope (which is lucky forme-eyt even wit thsi proof they never admit it....Classic SLANDER. But I dont have enough money in bank account to qualify for any lawyer's interest.

Observe the criminality of a doosh bag cop who ATTEMPTS to make it sound like I was sending multiple vulgar emails and making phone calls...as opening statement of the report, is purposely trying to underplay the fact that Kartsch herself admitted she and I had had virtually ZERO contact whatsoever in this entire 1.5 yr time span at this point. Adam Birbrower generously suggested I apply for full report that includes this supposed evidence any emailings that NEVER happened....notice the response (in blue ink at bottom of graphic) "email transcript (oh NOW its a transcript?) cant be release due to its evidentiary properties to be used in POSSIBLE future PROOCEEDINGS...Trying to sound threatening much!!! The Chinese ar buying prisons so poeple like this can play abughareb with people like me....am I the only oen who sees this sad reality? How dare they not only lie but SOOOO sloppily an dno on cares...thats what gets me ..."for future evidentiary proceedings." wow...Why cant I get an apology? Who says my life is this meaningless? I re ordered the statement section that admits she didnt have any contact with me to be on top here...to TRY to make it clear that Im writing about this to reveal the Stasi cunt Jane Kartsch is....and thsi cop? This liar? Will I have to FEAR ever driving thru Yorktown to go to KMart? Ya! But I bring it on mysekf? FUCK YOU ALL!!! Not having seen me/no contact on top of this other bs...that he writes with such emotion, such certainty, such....and this is all the "public record" ...why SWATTING is a game for Stasi scum....like Jane

Even with all of the proof....no one comes to my rescue...What do you think Jane? Will I die like this? Or will some amazing writer like Bob Woodward swoop in and polish me off...lies lies lies lies Jane Kartsch lies lies lies lies...Im trying to make the connection between waste of emergency resources (even if only misdirecting intelligence (lying), and offering bad info...whatever its called...I have to rewrite this another time....Just needed these up here in case anything happens to me. I would rather be alone every second o fmy life than form bonds with such blodsucking liars how do they sleep at night?

Anyone Know Antonia Zaccarini?

I have a message for her and BJ in photo below (what a perfect name)...who's last name I forget...

 Thanks.  "maria G" she calls herself because she has 2 differnt last names that start with G...sometimes it's Maria Goroztieta, sometimes it's Maria Gorietta, sometimes it's another one...aliases? From Mexico probably 1% of the wealthy Mexican families who travel to Miami to xmas shop while the majority of their country lives in their sewers (or comes to th eUS to contricute to the work force and overpopulation growth off the charts.......Ya thast the woman I remember...rushing off to BJ (the NY rep) to see to it that I have more shit hurled at me....like vampires looking for a kill....because I asked them to intervene in my roommate from hell situation: dearbikram.com

Maris G's story of healt gained thru Bikram almost identical to mine...and yet never in my life would I ever rob someone of the very medicine keeping m ealive, them alive....my story for th eages.

 It was actually a GANG of latinas at my Bikram Yoga Teacher Training who one morning had pounced on me over my moving one of their towels slightly, literally by a few inches, so I could avoid being stuck directly in front of one of the massive Dayton heaters and fainting in class. (It was up to about 120 degrees I once heard someone say)....I loved it but...had to be smart about making it thru...It was Maria, and the other dark curly haired maria and Beatriz and maybe one other...all chattering in spanish, staring at me and LAUGHING at me...I was amazed that they were even saying things that sounded like "Typical Americana.." THEY were the one's who were railing on my ethnicity and yet read Dan's email attached below and see how the story was relayed to him! I needed shit like that to happene to me like I needed a hole in the head....But because they'd givenm me money to be there they were watching, and when Jane Kartsch called to warn them what a terrible candidate I would be for yoga training...it all but reinforced it.....check out what 311 people doing yoga together in one roo, with 120+ temps looks like...notice how close the towels are together? But the "argument" that started when Sara Halpern bitched that I'd placed my towel too close to hers...wasnt any different then 311 peole fitting in a room together...Its so hard to explain because its so tedious all so petty...but thos little jobs and bitches cost me everything....

Then when Maria Goregontitta went off on me a second time for "putting my towel too close" to Sara Halperin's I mimicked her as the female Ricky Ricardo she sounded like "Comb to theee meedle of the towle!" I boomed back at her because she was SUCH a dram a queen in group study, everyday waiting for meetings with Rajashree who kept talking her out of leaving training...she must have had money...but these are the simple stories that got twisted around in order to bloster Jane Kartsch's phone calls to honolulu begging them to believe her lies about me being "a dangerous person" Have  I become one now? For writing aboyt my own experience with blatant injustic and so in turn might make your jaw drop? Oh.

Then the freak Frank in the speedo all the way to the right? He felt insulted one morning when he saw me cringe by the amount of sweat he was splashing onto my towel...so took some kind of scummy hairy dustbunny from some where and flciked it onto my towel...that was like maybe the second class of the training...so when an asshoel like that hears the conformation from Jane that I need to be sniffed out, and fucked with? Poeple LOVE that shit...youd expect more from "yogis" right? Expect on...Maria G and Sara Halperin went out of their way to complain aboyt my Maria impersonation to BJ (an NYC teacher-knowing that would be the geographic most harmful to me notice--the calculating mind games of these fuckers....I tell ya)

BJ from Bikram Yoga Teacher Training Honolulu 2007 What was her last name?

Dear Antonia, Shuv the hate back up your asses.

Craig was THE biggest asshole at the talent show, playing one boring Beatles cover after another, when the ass kissing audience kept applauding..."Oh ok really? One more...allow me to oblige..." What an ass.

These people lied and conspired, all the people  who went out of their way to see me ruined. aoh shit I forgot Claire Maarschalk.... From top left across each line: Suzanne Elliott, Jim Kallet, Antonia Zaccarini, Craig Villani, BJ (last name) BYNYC, Victoria Goldner, Kyoko Arikura, Jane Kartsch, Beatriz Helena Ramirez,  Maria Gutierrez, Sarah Halpern, Frank Las Vegas

 Out of 311 people at teacher training I got along with most...sadly it only take ONE to start a fire...and these dozen or so conspired to turn my life ruination into their own personal entertainment...never hurt any one of them in anyway...and yet that went out of theirs to destroy the little time I had to pull a rabbit out of a hat and get my shit together...poeple suck....One of the CT murders today I just heard was on Yogananda CT. wow.

How Censorship CREATES Poverty

Ok. Now it's starting to become so clear...its just not possible to be any more so clear....For every person who ever told me to "move on" this is my response to your masked insults. Recently I'd written to a few old Crotonites maybe a coupla yogis about the injustices....instead of ignoring me I find it fascinating that they take the extra step of blocking me, or "reporting" me to facebook as an abuser. When this is EXACTLY how this such forum is so incredibly valuable. People ar eso turned off by anything that requires dialoging in a new way, because theyre spent after all their porn or shoppig sites....tthis kind of laziness is what allows a country to be tricked into a fght, say a 11 year war DESIGNED to appeal to lowest common denominator who wer eallowed ot come into power, in order to take the suicidal leap with brilliantly designed propaganda...maybe Donald Trump i right, in that just like Castro, who studied acting in Hollywood before his "revolution"...war has always been a kind of caged fighting meets NFL Superbowl ever since Eisenhower first DARED to point it out. Fine you wantto go play yellow ribbon hero, because that will "get you ahead" because "that's what people want to hear from other people?"

Anyway, i digress.  For the 6+ yrs Ive been on facebook as far as I knew I'd never been 'blocked" in any way by anyone. In the same way I cursed out my (practically sister growing up) cousin Melanie in 1993 for leaving me lieterally on the street because she thought I was making up a story aboyt being beaten up by the woman cop months before....I wish Oprah fuck it Ill take Dr Phil at this point would ask her "What exactly did she do for you to have so much doubt? Not trust her in such an emergency situation no less?" This is exactly why poeple get to the point of killing themselves-when their own loved ones, who they've never crossed before in their lives no less, turn an attempt at dialoging in order to make straight again into an attack on their stupidity as if on purpose....They would rather cling to their backwards pov then save the life of their own family...She's a republican btw...In public she (and her mom and sister) will send you to the local church when one is down and out....forget about renting a room from them, they wont even associate. The shame is theirs alone, originally I was just trying to fix asap b4 it was too late...but the response did turn me into an asshole I admit....But Im glad I didnt kill myself even though they'd have preferred a quickie funeral and a few croc tears to fix my problem.

The whole entire "Scofflaw/Farebeaters" crime initiative was something concoted by the MTA. This statement by Termaine Jackson in a 1993-94 newspaper article was about a (supposed) $80 Million in revenue loss, because they were rationalizing giving 200 BILLION to some french company who's designed the metro cards. Probably a team of cracker hackers who have scared the shit out of MTA accountants ever since by FUCKING with their books digitally and threatening them with taking the fall for it if they go against...THAT is what it's all come to.

 The very first person I realized had blocked me was my own family member, a cousin named Diane who I spoke to for the first time in 10 yrs on my last birthday. Her brother called 3-way with her almost a year ago now, and I was late for a chiropractor appointment, so we barely got to talk for 5 minutes.  But THAT was enough for her to block me on facebook. I know this because I'd sent her a friend request long long before, so long before I even forgot, but then suddenly I kept getting an error message that read "Page does not exist". So what had I done? Nothing. But those are the moments when you know people are talking. 

Ironically all I ever go on and on about is exactly THAT talking that kills...thats conversation that kills....and why? Because I got royally screwed up an dinstead of committing suicide I actually CHOSE bravely perhaps? To address it in the only way I had available to me? Fine dont give me points, but add to it? Jane ADDED to it, Bikrma ADDED to it...anyone who went out of their way to ADD to my astronomical LOSS goes onto the project list...and just like the anatomy chapter in 10th grade biology I will dissect their mother fucking brains WITH WORDS!!!!! Because that swht my forefathers taught me, thats what Im SUPPOSED to do as a brave american....and you all can pretend Im so freak psycho harriet the spy recording your lying cheating asses as far back as a teenager!!! I have Nancy fucking Kennedy on tape at the age of 14 trying to turn Tracey Villeneuve Dorien against me....Nothing in my life has ever frustrated me more than lies over NOTHING. Lies for popularity games...Guess who still consider themselves friends? Nancy the liar and Tracey the genetically obese hater. Nancy Kennedy just "friended" my brother a few weeks ago! My brother who hasnt spoken to me prefers to speak with Nancy Kennedy why? My brother yelled at me as I drove by my entire family gathering at his house on xmas eve that he would call the police if I didnt DRIVE away...I hadnt even gotten out of the car or'd been there 2 minutes. But Ray and Nancy are simply in investment protecting mode. Oh sure they probably had a "heart to heart" when they discovered something in passing in common....but ayway IMgetting off track. The point is. Here is an opportunity to try to make a lousy $50 that I desperately need...but Im stopped. Im censored because if I sent a bitchy message, and "unfriended" bitchy message to people like this in my life they DO call the fb police! "Report" says the option's button...but look at this pic of what fb said when I tried to respond to someone in order to possibly make a little money....cut off....So Jane's fingerprints are directly on this one, and hell my own family acting like this even let's Jane off the hook to some degree....but this is not a waste of time to see this for what it is. The ONLY thing that makes Nancy's Kennedy's life more fun (certainly not better) is money. I overheard someone talking about her oldest buy a few months ago as a stuck up asshole...true or not....I know Nancy's decision to get married sounded back then so incredily "arranged" and unromantic (the story was Paul had just been rejected by a shorter blond barely a few months before) IN other words this was a BUSINESS deal from the start...maybe because everyone was still so traumatized by the stains in the back seat of someone's station wagon...oarents felt rushed to MAKE POWERFUL , all for the best reasons Ill agree, well intended anyway...but the MONEY isnt allwoed to stomp those of us who waited for the love...only to ended up screwed over in other ways fine....Part of my writing style btw is to loose your fucking asses as I simply recall as much as possible for the edited version and when it comes out one day....then it will all MAKE CENTS. The cents you have to make in order to be taken seriously by sellouts and hypocrits and liars and ASSHOLES galore.

Healthcare Mixed up with Money

My father lost everything in early 1980s. I went to school with families who only give each other jobs at the New York Times, or CBS...even the guy who left Time Magazine for Playboy, perhaps the one who inspired the saying 'read it for he articles'....it never happened, thank god BUT....a young girl is programmed to think this way...

30 years later I think it's adorable I acted on some delusional info that playboy gave women $200,000 for their nededness..and this was as risque as I got...yet those pwerful familes who's parents edit these magazines stand back and laugh at the naivete while someoen was trying to make a last ditch attempt at saving family home...in "red" Croton...even Pete Seeger's wife snubbed my FARMY tshirt yrs ago...Never in my entire adult life have I ever been able to afford a ticket to the clerwater festival....its unnatural....but do enjoy 10million hispanic refugees in my pace. Dinner parties ar eso much more peaceful when poeple dont speak the sam elanguage....at least until theyre not anyway. Then just like that SNAP. It's a military coup. Fuck you Nancy Kennedy (when I was homeless she went out of her way to tell Cully family NOT to rent the cottage (because sh ewas focussed on selling it-or more ugly than that?)

...so in a sadly desperate attempt at figuring out away to try to save my family's home...I asked Tracy Villeneuve to take these pix of me when we were out at Montauk, I was maybe 20? And I actually sent this picture to playboy, hoping they wanted to see under the bikini? I dont know all I'd heard was they pay fortunes...this is the trap, the deception...I never would have spoken about that to anyone if it weren't for the comparison with what goes on all around us with young people today....Im most of all telling this story because of the laughter I can still hear, from these poeple who were in a position to give me a fkn Channel ad with teh right angling. I was trying to keep my family displaced and these "self proclaimed 'chosen few' dont help-thats fine-but to laugh? THAT is what this project Ive been slowly simmering ideas over...over 20 yrs will turn into what Im still not sur eyet....but like fine wine...the ability to SHUV the hatred back into thefaces of those who torture with a smile....the documentation of my deflated life ALL because of moneyfrom the start....even Deborah Moore even gets an out on thisrealziation that I didnt have that $1.25 indirectly because my family home had been ripped out form under us.....I just asked Paul Karas if he would considering allowing me to take it back somehow one day, and he unfriended me lol! I mean you gotta love the record right? The sheer stupidty i sthe cause of health and economical problems but we creat issues and exerts to talk aboyt nothing....while the once roylaty gets flushed down the toilet-because what we once thought of love and admiration was really just feeding-like vapmires-and how the roomanticize the notion so they can live with their void empty souls? The mormons are as clever as the chinese I swear to god........the good news is it is that simple...the tragedy is people are addicted to choosing torture and I dont man in a kid watching a horror flick kind of way...IM talking blood baths of armageddon-and the anger coming from a place that realizes it didnt have to be this way..... The entire republican party should be indicted for the war that's banrkrupt the country and turned US rep into a hated target (uh I guess not on purpose-just too much testosterone and blinders on? The ego that gets in the way of all that joy that could be. Thank you Michael Hutchence and Joni Mitchel for today's lyrical quotable quotes.....kabish?

 

I came across this photo a couple nights ago and... ok so I just got a warning that what Ive written so far was at risk of being lost...I did nothing....I guess thats why I publish without proof reading...How does one edit an SOS? Rich people dont want to share their green relief, they want to labotomize you with tghe white prozac they sell, to keep you on the couch, content like a prrisoner by choice.....do you hear me? Can you hear the echo? See how poeple get arrest for poetry Jane? Exploring the words, 100 miles away from a person who cause them so much grief...and that person (you) still tries to have them arrested....because of guilt ghosts driving you crazy? Confess.

Yoga Teachers are Politicians

Years later...jokes wer emade to try to make me feel better...so muh tim elost...when OI look at old photos I think I probably was still so fertile....now I have no choice but to accept it over...

A lot of poeple hate her...but even just a littl emoney protects the scum o fth eearth...

Nattie Gossip the Australian Witch and Joy the Danbury Bitch

Why thank you?

Nattie Gossip..exactly that:

did i put this one up already?

www.dearbikram.com

Like a game of telephone it went from "woman with her head cut off" to "decapitated"...dangerous...took on a lif eof it's own...I sent attachments of the police report to Dan but he writes "I cant see yor attachment" just tell me why you seem to be avoiding answering...it sounded like he wasnt hearing one word I said...so if I DARED express frustration? Forget it! THAT became "Yelling at me! Or whatever ...escalating...weird power plays by psycho yogis....hell..absolute hell..

blah blah blah

And again...how hard I worked...the ONLY goofd thing about getting older is how little I give a shit about anyone's opinion...especially when I consider what a bunch of liars most people are....the photos speak volumes...

LOvely Lady

When I think about how hard I worked...it just destroys me....Im still completely at aloss as to why anyone would take away...I mean look at the photos!!! Look at the pig Id become!! I was SO depressed. I went from borderline homelessness, to rape, to police beating, more poverty, major knee surgery.....u can see it in th eblubber, in my sadness...and look what I did! LOOK how hard I worked! Why would Jane interfere in my life? 

People with money always think that they're really exceptinal or gifted in life-as if...just plain lucky...what a joke...more than dying I wish Jane poverty...I wish her total homelessness without healthcare and cancer on top...but that would never happen-Ive heard stories there are other's besides me...the crucufied....like the vampiress she is...one day she'll crumble i gues...

There was this guy named Sebastian at my training. I have about 300 photos of him lying down, noyt at the end! but ALL thru training...he graduated no problem. He didnt have a Jane on hi scase I guess...and of course he had money...Bikram LOVES money...more tan anything else...

Femails

More on this later...but again...she didn't tell Dan that I called her a cunt, she didnt tell my lawyer I sent a decapitated photo (of myself)...the contradictions abound!

I also have a letter from her attorney in repnsnse to mine that claims I gave her a fake password 20 times...uh right....but gave his (!) nephew (her new web designer!) the password (and the 20 page site, all w original photos and hand made graphics I made for her for $75 that she LOVED (a lot more than just a domain name) and she gave me a year of unlimited yoga classes in exchange. I have ALL of this still in email...even an email where her web guy calls her an asshole too...Thi sstatement from her lawyer says NOTHING about any vulgarity...which I do use more than ever lately...but at the time really not that bad...certainly not unwarranted...but anyway..

...the one I MOST want to put up asap is the cordial exchange between her new web designer (and apparently lawyers nephew)...too much work tonight...its a pain to create jpegs of all of it-trying to remove others' email addresses w/o spending too much time etc..pain.......but I will have a quilt of Jane's lies and whatever it takes to get one person to force her to apologize ot me...it WILL happen...

Flame the Bikram Teacher From Thailand is the Witness

My lawyer asked her to please give himone name of a person she claims heard my call her a "cunt".  The fact is I called my roommate in training a cunt, and this shocked everyone. I was so never able to fully live it down that even Jane Kartsch was advised by Hope to claim I had also called her a kunt, thereby giving her baseless lies the sound of more credibility...it's staggering the degree to which I was so screwed over with mind games and lies and totally made up details...It would only take one official person to sit down and look at all the contradictions...for example where was this mention of ANY vulgar language whatsoever in first police report?

The fact is I arrived just before Flame from Thailand was starting class, she said to me "Are you coming?" as I was standing at the door asking Jane veryt politely if we could just get past the silliness..There was one or two studnets rushing by to class when Jane said "I had to call the police on you (this was february 2007 2 months after report had even been filed so I didnt even know) I thought she was kidding...how could she resort to such cruelty I thought...I warned her that I would go by on my way home to ask police if this were true-thinking that would make her fess up she was kidding...ya right...anyway before I left I said to her in a whisper, under my breath, a quiet growl would be a good description "You should be shot." No one was there other than Jan ebehind her desk, me at the door and it was so quiet enough, figurtaively enough(!) that even JANE didnt hear it.

Such Happiness Destroyed By Jane Kartsch of Bikram Yoga Yorktown and Why?

Pictures are worth a thousand words right? I mean seriously? This is THE ONE SIMPLE question Jack Kartsch: No matter how "ugly" you think I became after the fact, blogging, bitching, whatveer u think you see i sfine...but tell me bfore Jane called the police on Dec 6 2006...what had I done after not seeing, speaking, phoning and only emailing once expressing interest in coming back to practice after that  SIX FUCKING MONTHS (all verifiable FACT) why the police report Jack? Motherfuckers? You are SO caught...even when my lawyer asked her as much in his first ketter-she's SO delusional she went off, never explaining, contradicting hersel, digging the hole deeper...and yet no apology? Im sorry no aplogy and STILL allowed to call the poloice on me? Really? At what point does someone cut me the check? Should I express my demands be paid up in hardware? 1) Home on large acreage in a county or state (go dhelp me country?) where I could try to feel Im not surrounded by piece of shit dime a dozen fucktards who would kill me as easily as they scratch their ass...who deserves to be disempowered? and why?  There are differnt kinds of lying..its the malice I want to pitbull after...

Guess which one is Jane? Thrilled. It had been so many years since Id fit into a
sizesmall tshirt-it felt so amazing. That would only last less than 3 months.

Tell me wht I did Jack an dIll be the first to rip it ALL down....write apologies for the rest of my life....a joyful thing to confess when one i swrong really! I long for it...the heaviness of despising your cowardice makes me wish for a...shit cant even say that! ...well some thing sare understndable...sad but true...but malice....Im devoted to its end-even if i only imagine such a day....on top of that there are people who would say I would choose for myself, over teaching and owning a great studio with endless clients daily...I would dream of one day being the clay tiffany of the westchester yoga community....this is how they get away with it-calling ppl crazy...tip toeing outside the door...great...2:34 am
...2 mins pass...just peeksed out windwo to see who left the bldg...too dark...then see a police car drive up from bottom of street looked to pull over as if someone got in super fast (?) the drove by....I also would like to think some people would be as quick to look out fo rme....but thats what happens when trust is broken...beat up, bullied, for no reason...and these adults want to talke my poetry to the fkn school yard? where they linger mentally forever....talk aboyt stuck? fuck.

We're about 17-19 years old here side by side,  Imagine being ahted for wanting to dance by someone who's going to take forever to grow up, and on top of that claim to be a teacher or therapist that can "help" you work thru your shit? Imagine?

 

Thanks for the Filet Mignon. Sorry to Run

When I see this photo now and again it rips my heart to pieces. I'd never felt healthier in my life, my enthusiasm was ridiculous...and really what else but malice would turn that into target to sabotage.  and why... Jack Kartsch said to me over the phone last year, "It became so ugly, you became just so unbelievably ugly..." and so if thats how he sees it so be it...ya we've been in communication Jane and I apparently, without me uttering more than barely a sentence once in the past 6 years. Shit . I just realize the anniversary of her first police report is tonight-or was Dec 6 2006..

.or was it the ninth...dont care to go check...anyway ya, fine say it's been ugly...and yet how? Because tey come reading after me? I've never contacted her since February 2007 when sh eTOLD me about the police reprot (as Id never done anything to be aware there would be one at all...) this i sho wshe makes stuff up from the...and yet she still has gone on to write police reports all the way up until Sept 2012! Because I wrote an email or FB message to Lynn Whitlow (who I always forget is from Osining HS) who I had an incredible expoerience with at TT 2007....it seemed ironic to me when I read about her coming up to do a workshop at Jame's Bikram studio in Yorktown 10 minutes away....and so why shouldnt I point that out? And we wonder why we cant cure disease? Because of th ebusiness of going out of our way to make each other miserable i sthe accepted norm...too tired will write nore later

RICE AND RUMSFELD FOR DINNER

When did the GOP stop talking about Rumsfeld shaking hands with Sadam photos and focus on Susan Rice? What's most interesting about this photo, is how it seems the original, or even any better quality than this doesnt exist any longer...this is the best dpi you can find when you google "Rumsfeld shaking hands with Hussein.

Like Sheep You are

 feel like I'm watching myself pull all of these rivers together like stories into the same ocean. I was so paranoid after the beating, the obsession with recording everything after being told "It never happened (for fear of ruination)". in so many ways year after year , yes at this point a self fulfilling prophecy...but how dare you continue to put it on me......spleef? Everyday, every second for the past 20 years this January coming, I used to be concerned about introducing work stories with home stories only to end up with war stories. [momentarily cringed with the thought of it all I'm learning everyday how it is that someone like Bikram or Jane, murder. They take my emotional pulse freely, and know what money to pay a type like the Crawford family.....do you see who CREATES the prisons? EVERYONE SUCKS RICH AND POOR SO GODDAM STUPID> I could imagine them hiring an operative to have coffee with ....why invite it right? FUCKING KILLERS ALL ABOUTND....Ya not having kids will kill you too? wft...as if they have yet a right to believe I actually write to them at all,.....,  I used to

The nurse was humilitaed...for whatever the reason....OR once again a made up story...like sheep you are I tell you!!! 

like the vampires who only know money as blood...time is money....its a human breed of pitbull...liek Jack Nicholson's character so perfectly claimed "You cant handlt the truth"...

My condoleeza rice to the family.

POST SCRIPT

In post below I mention the way Carol Lipko and Robin Bolls referred to me (in 2006) as "a fat smelly lonely old woman cooking dinner alone"...I got the sam eshit from Mark CRAWFORD (I believe he's very likely related to the serial killer down in Mt Vernon in the news yesterday)...but seriously? Now that I am fat and old and half dead Im MOURNING the loss of these years where I was tryign SO hard to set up my yoga business....This is a story for Presidnet Obama to refer to when discussing HEALTH CARE and the economy both...honestly...someday someway someone's gonna pay.

This guy below, is not Mark McNair but Mark Crawford (!) Kinda looks like Lucious Crawford arrested for stabbing sprees and murders across the country a few days ago....But my neighbors find ME to be a problem? Really? This neighbor (downstairs squatting illegally for 5 years since the grandmother died of some STRANGE refusal of blood transfusion-they say because of religion) who also calls me names, who screams that I sleep with my dog, and who put a gun on his baby (according to his own gf yelling about it out in the hallway) last year...."You can't even CALL the police because youre a crazy piece of shit who just got let out of the insane asylum" he yells in front of the Con Ed guy who showed up to investigate how he broke into MY electrical closet to connect his turned off electric! But IM the neighbor from hell? Only to a fat cunt of hypocrit piece of shit like Robin and Jane and Caro...the rest of them....THIS is what happens to a woman who had the world on a string but stuck her neck out to try tpo not do anythoing for money she didnt beleiev in...I cant beleiev I used to want to HELP "poor people" POOR people are jst as scummy (more in fact) as rich...

I mean seriously look at this fat pig of a piece of shit cow in red shirt...understand the HELL she has GONE OUT OF HER WAY TO CAUSE in my life.....but Im the "dangerous" person...right...thats why I get so ugly in my blog (rather than killing myself)...

Thats why these ACTUAL dangerous people roma the streets even after they KILL people because the police are kept busy with the pettiness of shit epople like Robin and Paul Bolls.  I have to find the link to the youtube video of them PLOTTING tot cathc my dog to see if he has updated rabies shot last summer...Dear Cop who Jane Karstch called at Yorkown Police-I live like this? Why?

THE NEIGHBORHOOD

Check out what Robin and Paul Bolls and Carol and Arron Lipko wrote about me in 2006.....there is no way to capture the cruelty that I have been (an dstill am to this day) subjected to by these wretched hateful troublemakers who have police at my door once or twice a year for some petty dog complaint or found pieces of paper etc....( governorpataki.com )and I was SO determined to build a yoga business to escape from this...only to end up being called a "dangerous" persn by Jane who I'd told how I was suffering...I mean seriously? How does anyone explain this?

 

Written by Carol Lipko with Robin Bolls of Christ the King School in the Bronx in 2006.

Then observe what I looked like at the time....smelly old woman? See? Instead of ntroducing me to their friends or socializing and being neighborly its more like they were so insecure abot their husbands being attarcted to me? I mean how else can it be explained? I was SO nice.

BIKRAM YOGA BEFORE AND AFTER

 I was just looking through some old photos and was shocked to see how young and beautiful I looked in 2007 BEFORE Bikram yoga, thanks to Dr. Joel Fuhrman. Back then I was so quick to want to give the credit to the yoga because I was so immersed in it...I mean I do still give credit to yoga but MY yoga NOT BIKRAM CHOUDHURY. Whatever is good abot Bikram Yoga i sonly because because was kissing ass with Yogananda's BROTHER...and he got lucky...the man is the biggest egomaniacle asshole in the world-too stupid to practic ethe most basic and obvious tools... I look like Im 25 years old-granted it's a dark photo, and its just a photo-but seriously? How many millions of dollars does society pay pretty faces to sell shit? Absolute shit....I dont feel like writng thsi now...will edit later...jst a few quick notes (to self)

 The difference is they're all connected to a male or female Ron Perlman type agent...

...all connected...but Im incapable of making mor than $20,000 a year? Seriously? Till the day I die (which may be anytime now) I will go to my grave believing the thin blue police line goes to these kinds of extreme lengths to sabotage the life of anyone who crosses tem (files a multi million dollar law suit for example)...Ive kept track of, documented the paper trail, all the details that just dont add up and will never understand why I was given such a hard time...I mean seriously? Look at me? Im a caring, intelligent, thoughtful person on top of being attractive and then I look around and see all the oompahloompah hairy little gorilla (no offense to gorillas but there is no word more perfect to describe the look) who have 6 children through welfare....wtf? Really? Im supposed to believe I ruined my own life? Ya so I used the internet to start bitching early on...but I ised to be a little bit reserved...nothing that bad....have only ever wanted an answer, and maybe an apology.

But then comes Bikram Yoga. Actually I give credit to Dr Joel Fuhrman for bringing me back to life after my knee surgery and massive weight gain in the early 2000s. I looked fantastic at the age of 45 thanks to him NOT Bikram. It was only because of Dr Fuhrman inspring me to believ eit wasnt too late that I went to do yoga everyday, and the pounds were rolling off because of my healthy diet also...because of him. All of the PETTY bullshit politics that goes on in Yoga is what ended up making me sick again. Guess what Jane? Along with these pix I also found ALL of your emails....Im going to dedicate a special page to them....coming soon...

Let Me Tell You Why NFL Sucks

   All these years I've been making the mistake of referring to it as "football"realizing that could mean soccer...an duh now, I realize actually how much in fact I've loved footaball in my life playing it with flags as a child (funny type o gotta leave that. footaball...) Anyway it sucks because from here? Now today NFL looks, and who's kidding who, is very much what Pro Wrestling has always been made fun of. Its perversion. Oh how it sucks to address small minds. Or I should say concucted small minds. Concucted hateful small minds. Concucted hateful dangerous small minds.

   I want to go to the KKK meeting the local news is hyping in some story tonight. When will the public ever fully understand the sensationalism that goes into every aspect of "news reporting"....I want to attend the meeting because I want to explain to the organizers how they're probably wrong in their oversimplification of what's "wrong" in the world" but also tell them I understand how they could come to the wrong conclusion, as Im surrounded by the scum of the earth presnetly who happen to be black...and as a matter of fact almost every single devastating thing that's happened to me in my life is connected to a black person...etc.......the very act of going, the very EXERCISE of moving my fucking legs and breathing with my fucking lungs, seeing with my fucking eyes and listening is the only fucking thing worth doing in life-and now more than ever needed....dear sweet listening. As simple as total stillness and quiet, but no...the human race turned into cock roaches by commercialism will eat up the planet with as much gratitude as a silk worm. No matter what the skin color.  When did the "news" stop discussing the role of the cathoilc church in Nazi Germany for example? Instead of gettng into the intricacies of bs factors in human relations we go on looking for the sacrifice! The crucifications-THAST what the church is about but never waht Jesus was about! There';s your news story. The cia used to pit certain societal groups against each other I read somewhere...all a bunch of life size parlor games really...to direct markets. Get it? IN the name of peace, peas, and pee, and a whole lot more. When youre a genius the world is your oyster the rest be damned if they cant keep up or figure it out...stupid people keep each other in line, by simply being stupid...

I get it now KKK? But that doesn't mean I have to go be indoctrinated. That means maybe by one fucking person saying to angry people 'I get it.' It diminishes the hate just enough 1 person might be spared fromm the act. But people are programmed to be self conscious, more worried about looking gooy than getting something done. EVERY FUCKING THING YOU DO MATTERS. Find your fun in realizing that fact from now on,

in fact it looks like there's no ozone layer at all anymore doesn't it? Look at that ring! That aint no rainbow.

   No harm in continuing to believe they always will. But then you wonder. When you look at that shot of NASA's (?) from space tonight. Its not a good thing to see the pretty little (bigger than ever) city lights, as it looked like the beginning of fire cracking through a shell thats no longer lubricated with that source of, oh in fact now that the oil is all blown back into the sky it looked like the firs from the volcanoes in side the earth were going looking for the oil in the air.  . The start of a fire...here come the fires of hell....but the businesses of interfering in other peoples' lives took over and no one has been paying attention to a bigger reality ? Ya thats what that photo looked like ...I gotta go find it and put it up. Diane Sawyer was calling it lovely, and cute....and if it were disny ya those would be the words....My stomach still feels sickly butterflies. The earth seemed to be breaking into pieces from this fire, as easily as a chickn breaking thru the shell of an egg,  over heating from the inside, searching for the reincarnated oil in the atmosphere, taking on another form, morphing into something a million times more penetrable. Piercing, like chemical lasers...do you see it too?

I realize now it's not at all the football that I've been hating, it's the commercialization used to be a bad word. When I was growing up it was just on the cusp of sleeping with the devil. Outr lives were so storybook I guess poeple got bored. As a kid I took an interest in what they call "communications" today, but really it's fucking SHOW business...in one way or another. My grandmotehr couldnt articulate why it was so evil, so we fought about it...but now I see what she was feeling. A truly dangerous violence in the air that occurs when too many people are hungry and  ready to "party", as in head butting politix like rams and jets (even the word jet! The jet FUEL......anyone over the age of say 30-35 has no excuse to not be doing everything in their power to help-and it takes as little as sitting the fuck down and shutting up, and meditating, ya meditate with the TV on.. a man stabbed a woman in the chest 17 times last night, people stood by filming a man being squashed by a Q Train so they could show it to someone...or even just watch it over an dover again themselves? We've allowed "scary" people to dictate because if you can just hide out and avoid...but the cherries run out Virgina. Fuck the NFL, Fuck professional wrestling, Fuck the Pentagon for using entertainment to create this mentality of roid head gladiators .... that poor family of Ki-Suck Han, I wouldnt be suprised if any one of thousand people set it up for some kind of commercial news paper needing to survive, 1000s of jobs that are starting to require sacrifice....I havent seen the Star Chamber in a long time...its not the same thing but oh no, its Network...its the prophecy of Paddy Chayefsky coming to roost...How to traiage murder stories for most effective societal communication?(assuming the goal is to maintain peace and not incite (which so many are paid to do)...the 20 yr old daughter said teh most profound thing to news cams tonight "Ya. It would have been great if someone had helped him up." Not because Ki-Suck Ha was any ore or less important than any one else, the ugliness that surrounded human kind in that story needed true prayer for weeks, years, decades, centuries...but they have to share the airwaves with some cracked out off spring of god knows what who even with a million dollar footaball contract an da new born baby? I mean Im sorry of course for their family, but probably a family that breeds this shit...JUST like the family Ive had the life sucked out of me by over the past 10 yrs...to the point that late in life, Im talking around the age of 46 I started to understand why not black people, but poor black people (and really just poor people) can so royally suck in their own special way.....If youre gonna tell someone theyre wrong-you dont start with those words. I wouldnt be surprised if some disgruntled or bored person just felt like fucking with the news...and tahts why "communication" break down is the trend....i gotta spare my eyes from the fire of this screen...like Prometheus we all are right? Burning ring of fire.

NY POST STAGED MURDER TO SELL PAPERS?

NY Post thrives on these kinds of images to sell its papers. What would Paddy Chayefsky say? I mean notice the "Likes" button? What kind of society does that? One who's police even get therapy from scum poseurs like Dr. Debi C. Moore.

All these years of telling the Deborah Moore story I described her as looking like Robin Givens, because she was very pretty. SO it was kind of an interesting coincedence that 17 years later Robin Givens herself would beat me up professionally in another way at Bikram Yoga Sarasota while I was teaching there and her little egomaniacle ass had me fired basically for suggesting sh elower her hip in matsya endrasana....just noticed in this photo today of Pitt, obviously TOTALLY ashamed that he touched the little whore...but look at her face. Bragging, smiling, loving the stir....

She walked over to me next morning, maybe a few days later while I was laying in savasana before taking class myself, knelt down to whisper in my ear to say "You are a nobody fat ass".

Robin Givens is a bully and another Bikram Cunt. Look how she's strategically placed her wedding band dead center in the shot almsot looking like she herself called paparzzi...manipulating media just like the post did with that man's life...Thats what Chayefsky and Marx warned about things coming to one day when counterfeit money and people start running the sho...and have bcome so entrenched an dpowerful you'll only ever see movie titles out in blockbuster mode like Live and Die Hard...while little movies capturing godsends like the one about Jobs barely get noticed in comparison....fuck you Robin Givens you sill whore...Id rather be dead than you-an dfeel sorry for your son. (Who she used to bring back to the afternoon class like a tool, because she had made such a scene yelling at me that morning etc...) all mind games..

Actually more ugly they have in common than pretty

At least Appreciating the Freedom in Poverty

I've almost burned through the little bit of money I got for my dying car, so have no money for food, no money for laundry...yet last night I made the most delicious meal by pulling old stuff out of fridge and cupboards. As I kid I remember my mom saying gnocchi was so complicated to make. Sh eprobably meant messy...but for that reason I never took it on to make it. Then read it's just flour and potatoes, and maybe an optional egg. Who knew. So I did it, with a sauce from some frozen peppers and 4 year old parmesan cheese shake I had, a little sauteed garlic in olive oil, sliced almonds and yogurt...so good.

I've been at this point in the cycle so many times for the past 25 years, where you think there's nothing, but in fact far from starving that I almost relish it (no pun intended). The same guy who taught me Bikram yoga in 1989 was actually the one to point out how fun the creativity involved, in combining thing syou never thought of before....I so don't want to go ask for foodstamps. Been there done that. The humiliation only adds to the depression....

It's so easy fro people to stand back and say, "just go get a job" when they're not in those shoes. I mean I ask myself "What the hell?" Thats why at soem point I just became obsessed with recording everything, documenting as much as I could...because when I go back and look at it...no one has to take my word for it. I mean the FL studio take over for example. Reading the text I sent to Moo barely 3 weeks before she backstabbed me and stole my money, I just don't know how much more polite, practical, fair I could have been...and yet that's the very nature of being sucked under the tow of sabotage. The person using gossip against me may really not realize the depth to which I've been taken down already....no one wants to hear my stories anymore. I guess Jane wins for now. But I'd rather be dead than operate like Jane Kunt...and I at least have priceless memories of people and places she could only dream of having experienced. I've had a great life without money...and I was naive to believe I would ever meet anyone, at the right time and place, with similar pov on life...I dont know.

Once again I cant afford my electric bill, I dont even have money for laundry...the angels always come thru for me...a miracle to take comfort in I guess...but still..to be so powerless, for so many years, decades in fact....who needs it.

Seriously, what kind of insecure, poseur (self published Im sure) author puts their licensing credentials on cover of their "book". Please.

I was watching Steve Jobs the Lost INterview last night. I wondered from where came this big picture forgiveness of the ugly human psyche in general. Stories about him being impossible, intolerable towards 1000s of people he fired abound yet you could see by listening to him he was just tight on his own rope, and most of the bitchers were probably just like scorned lovers really. Even Cringley in extra interview sounded like he was turned off by Job's arrogance..."But the jealousy, the greed is the unraveling, its the unraveling and it undoes all the joy that could be" all over it. Im obviously a mongoloid retard compared to Steve jobs yet I feel like I have that kind of devotion to feeling out whats right and wrong in my life that reads as arrogance to poeple and maybe thats one of my problems....that I take my own lief too seriously. I bet if I start writing too much about the SHIT IM reading on Dr. Debi C. Moore's "articles" on anger management (can you imagine!) and she gets wind? I bet there are NYPD death squads that do show up to stage incidents (as I used to beleive when it all first went down and I was suing the city) but this time....it will probably be to the death. This x cop now recites Ghandi on her webpage, and takes herself SO damn seriously while she's copying and pasting other people's ideas as her own...for money? Or she really believes her own bullshit maybe and gets off on having people look to her to help.

The Myth of Police Profiling

Hey Jack-Here's some more paperwork for the "dossier"... 

One day I will be apologized to...mabe not in my lifetime...but I want these papers in le cloud for safe keeping...Interesting that both cops are black....you always here about white cops profiling minorities right? So what do you call it when PO Debi C. Moore badge 3230 decides that some foofy white hippy chcik from westchester needs to be arrested over a matter of a $1.25 subway token? Was she being racist? I have no doubt.  Quinn I dont think so...just an idiot trying to make happy the tax payers who buy dribks at happy hour, to give em all something to laugh about...the crazy single chick who blew into town an dhad the nerve to question the grade school principal beaing up a kid...I gotta find this grown up kid on facebook...ya mother uckers THIS story will be told. (Deborah C. "Dr Debi" Moore apparently has written a book about anger management....one day sweetheart...You, me and Oprah

Notice the date July 5th 1995, and what I actually said in the complaint letter to owner of the storage comany. Compare this to the date (by penalty of perjury) of Pauline Walker (now Waldron?)'s accusation of harrassment on July 12th 1995. This charade went down 2-3 months after the fact, because while interviewing for job as a teacher at the Cairo Elementary school I accused the principal of abuse.  While in the middle of that interview the school principal was called out to take care of a 1st grader named Jeremy (or Jamie?) Scheck who was having a tantrum. I watched the principal drag the child sideways by the arm in a position that could have easily pulled his arm out of socket. He brought the child into a small closet.  I was so distrurbed by what I'd seen I (naively) reported it thinking if I were the parent I would certainly want to know about that**. It was the next day Trooper Quinn showed up at my door with this criminal summons. So when  saw him walk away with a battery without paying a year or two later, I couldnt resist showing it to someone at his base simply to say "How dare you". I thought because I didnt actually file any official report it would just be understood that I was trying to make a point. I had no desire to see the guy loose his job...not only did he not loose his job they showed up with my door with a summons naming me and Radio Shack in a $10 Million lawsuit which was settled I believe in 1999. I was contacted by Liberty Mutual who asked me questions about whether or not I'd had a romantic relationship with the guy (because I'd actually written a letter saying exactly that-that it wasnt my intention to get him in trouble just to informally say fy  etc..) So all of thsi happened just barely a yr and a half or so after the beating I got for not having a subway token by the woman cop who now quotes Ghandi on her website http://www.drdebimoore.org

It's understandable I would wonder f there were some kind of note in data bases next to my name that said "She sues cops-fuck with her please"....Because having one's head bashed in over $1.25 is just a tad extreme no? I did say "Die whore" to Pauline Walker (over the phone before hanging up so hard I broke the phone at Charlie's Autobody-notice ther eis no mention of that? Thats probably because the cashier Becy gave me $3 for gas because she didnt think I was so terribly in the wrong...when Pauline seemed to take pleasure in listening to how much I desperately needed my  $35 deposit back, after I'd just emptied out my sace etc....After a few trips with a little Datsun moving my stuff out I had no gas left....on that 4th of July weekend....but I certainly didnt say "I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU IF YOU DON'T GIVE ME MY MONEY:" 

 

These are the kinds of bullshit moves cops use regularly when theyre inspired to exaggerate, perhaps to impress or who knows, to charge someone with something that didnt really happen...when you look at all of the papers I still have from this personality hell, anyone can note that the dates are slightly off, or details dont exactly add up....But when a person is virtually alone, and has little or no money (I literally didnt have more than that $35 to my name at that point in my life) no one cares!!! Almost 20 yrs Ive spent my life demanding acknowledgment...and even worse than the false reports or even the beating...is the indifference. ACtually...worse than the indifference is when poeple look at me like Ive ever enjoyed one second of this bullshit...I mean the world full of liars and shit people living the good life when Im 1000x times better person-they get to have kids, while Im continually dragged into some other scenario...for standing up for whats right. IM NEW YORK'S FINEST...I was never allowed to have a life, or a family as a result...always driving people away by telling my stories...not realizing how I was only hurting myself by trying to ALWAYS explain why I was poor etc....I actually used to believe (for yrs) that I just had to run into the right person and they would think "Omg! Let's get you right back on track..." Uh quite the opposite....like what happened in FL...when someone was about to pay me (only) half the money they owed me to buy me out of my studio...they instead opted to tell the stories...my stories...that Id naively told them etc...I thought that much of myself...that I had enough going for myself of coutrse people would want to help me fight the good fight etc...uh no.

** About 2 years after that I met a woman named Margaret Scheck who was a secretary where I was starting to make my FARMY tshirts...We'd known each other for a while...but when I finally recognzed the name and put 2 and 2 together....she was not only not appreciative of me attempting to inform the parents...she WAS the parent! After that day she acted like she hated me....story of my life becaue im not a part of their status quo...the assholes that have to live with each other's lies an dbullshit...more on that story kater...

Ya when he walked out the door without putting the battery back on the gondola he took it off of, he probably just tossed it on the floor or left it on a shelf or...oh no wait thats right...I as working there and no batteries were left anywhere becauae an "off duty" customer changed his mind...

 

Oh an dwhat does the NYPD do with "mug shots" that show their (female) officer gave a young pretty woman from westchester who'd never been arrested before a black eye? A million dollars I would pay to have that photo.

You can tell by the choice of words in Quinn's attorney's letter that he was looking to see me fired from Radio Shack (which I was via a trick called "volutary quital, where they tell me I dont come in until MOnday then wehn I come in they say "Oh you didnt show up for 3 days so we assume you quit"...making me ineligible for Unemployment (according to the wife of a cop who was my case worker)...and then they even drove me from a lousy dive bartender position when it turned out the cops sometimes came there at happy hour....I watched Columbine happen while working that afternoon at that bar I just remembered..."known to be a dangerous person" so that liars and the shittiest fuckers on the planet can get away with their hate...